.Monday, November 30, 2009 ' 10:14 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
Things just seem to get further n further from my grasps.People leaving, drifting apart.Will I ever find a way to cure myself of this.I cannot, I only drift further into the darkness.
~*emo rox*~™
.Thursday, November 05, 2009 ' 8:31 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
this is draining me out...my emotions r rising n falling too rapidly that im beginning to lose control of them...idk what i can do, idk what i shld do...suddenly idk whether i wanna finish my NS...when this is done, id haf to go home...id haf to think of everything, everyday, over n over again...my life is as such, this is who i m...i m but nobody....
~*emo rox*~™
. ' 8:00 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
haiz...whys she always so sensitive...just coz of one small thing what...what did i do wrong sia...haiz sadded...i wanna go out la...but everybody not free one=( y dun i haf a grp of frens who i can always go out with?haiz so no life....just want to b the someone's centre of attraction...someone who can always b around with me...haiz....things r always so difficult...I HATE MYSELFLIFE!!!
~*emo rox*~™
.Friday, October 16, 2009 ' 5:32 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
haiz....being a good person is hard...worse when u realise ur not doing a good enuf job=x...im soooo tired of it all....crap crap crap.....
~*emo rox*~™
. ' 3:36 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
This is y i HATE coming back home....ARGHHHH...fuck la cant give me my own fuckin free time....
~*emo rox*~™
.Sunday, October 11, 2009 ' 6:31 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
Things are falling apart...my family my relationship...everything i hold dear...alot of things might start to change in the next few years...in fact things are already changing these few years...for the worse....i dunno what the future can hold...no more plans...im very tired...i grow tired of this...
I need to grow out of this....changes has to be done
~*emo rox*~™
.Friday, October 09, 2009 ' 10:23 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
I just did the dumbest dumb mistake i ever made...cant believe i couldve said dumber stuff thatn that...wth....wth seriously...shows what i really am...selfish, insensitive...stupid...
~*emo rox*~™
. ' 7:53 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
ah back on my dead blog to rant abt stuff no one bothers to read xD oh well its nice to read back old memories now n then anyways, laugh at myself lol...been going thru some other ppl blogs, those few whose i do visit lol...haiz everytime see so many ppl troubled, ownself oso troubled..though mine...lol shld b not much bah...but as usual, being to more emo me, sure go think abt it until it affects me lol...this week, damn tired....dunno y...i onli din slp for one night what xD ended up tired the whole week...every break in between, slp, slp, slp...got alot of time?play psp awhile, slp....lol really damn tired...dunno is mentally or physically tired sia...probably both=xoh wellz at least i got stuff to keep my weekend busy=) thinking of going back to my tkd and/or going out for jogs/rollerblading n stuff...on a side note, bank running on major deficit...money left at end of the month DEcreases every month=x...dammit need more control
~*emo rox*~™
.Saturday, October 03, 2009 ' 5:53 PM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
yawnz...tiring day...tiring as in im damn tired, but din really do anything but sleep lol...slept at abt 4am, woke up at 9am, 11am, 2pm,...lunchtime, went back to slp,....then juz woke up again at arnd 6-_-...physically n mentally shagged out...signs of disliking to come back home liao...not good, not good at all=x...got to hold on to my brain b4 i go nuts again...hate it how qns make me worry again...i need to find more more ways to fill up my time...i dun want free time to think....i dun want to think...i wanna rest....when will this end........
~*emo rox*~™
.Sunday, August 23, 2009 ' 2:16 AM Y
~would uiie be there for mii~
ok this blog thing finally back in use again....for the past few times i tried there seems to b abit of problem...so at first already lazy to blog...got problem even more dun feel like blogging lol...AHM: 21km run....it was....erm...fun?xD k la not bad good experience, got the knee support thingy to prevent my knee from popping...seriously, it felt really bad at the 16km build up run...AND, i got a pacer at the run xD...some girl running the 21km oso...k la besides the fact that i think shes quite nice looking, shes got a good pace for me to follow, so i decided, might as well match her pace=p...haha not that i purposely follow her coz she good looking la, but the pace was really quite well...kinda gay that shes a girl though...i mean, i may not b a fantastic runner, but i aint slow ok?n shes matching up at my pace too...crazy...so many crazy long distance runners....including QT!!!!whos suppose to meet me but left b4 meeting!!!!=(...sad la, suppose to b our first meeting one loh...was kinda looking forward to it too...then she pangseh tsk tsk tsk...oh wellz she promised a meeting after her hols so ill b waiting arh!=poh yea got my timing for the run already : 2hours 17mins not bad considering my knee injury=p n well today(or rather ytd, considering the time=p) met up with shawn tien, tien cheng, jessen, wen chong, yong qiang for lan gaming, n kinda gathering too...saw andeus at the lan shop too haha so long din see him liao...MR andeus quek=x...haiz when will my rank become MR =panyways, kena owned la in dota...been how long since i played liao...so many things changed le...cant even rmb what to buy, where to buy=x...not like i was much of a good player last time either...then now yong qiang so pro liao...everytime i opposing team one lol...same lane as him some more...damn sian...the onli decent game i got was probably the one using rhasta...probably the onli familiar character i used...got couple of kills with it too=p...anyways that was quite late le la...ooo tml(as in 24aug) my sis bday liao...duno the present she will like anot, this time not the usual stuff toy liao lol...whenever i get a present for someone close i will give thought to it one hor!take alot of time thinking b4 getting a present one=p...oh yea finally met up with JY also!haha finally managed to get her out to watch movie=p still refuses to arcade though=p stubborn lil elephant=p looked different from how she looked in pics though...not that chubby, n look more cheena xD...grabbed her out to shop with me for my sis present the other day as well =p haha cmon its juz shopping rite?=p no harm accompanying me mah since live so near jp nia=pon a side note: dun give me ur fukin excuses...onli a guilty person will come n make up excuses...telling me all that crap onli makes me feel more disgusted abt u...when can u start growing up u fukin loser :rolls eyes: next time, im avoiding this kinda shit already...dun wanna b involved with ur crap again
~*emo rox*~™