H a v e n o f h e l l

2011-04-28T00:00:00.003+08:00

well...its my birthday today lol...happy?not quite i guess lol...actually, that doesnt even come close lol...haiz, this thought keep bothering me recently...guess its really time to give up...so much things have happened...let me have this day to recap y i m emoing lol....

1. something i hold very important to me...friendship...i thought i finally found a place i could belong to...n stupidly put my hopes in it...haha how silly...it always end up the same...its time i learn the cruelty of reality...n give up...the fact that i dun matter...n my absence makes no fucking difference...being true to others doesnt mean ppl will b true to u...the rule of society, if u dun fit in, people wont give a shit about u...

2. the feeling of giving IT up....is getting stronger...ive thought it thru...n i really wanna go thru with it...but of course...my heart cant bear...something so rare...so powerful...but i guess, it was nvr mine...i gave it my all...but all it gave me, was senseless, meaningless, painful waiting...im sick of it...really...4 years...n u nvr gave me any reason to hold on even...i guess it was just my own stupidity...only someone as dumb as me couldve hoped so blindly for this...fool...

3. family's health has not been well...my sister had so many accidents in china...her body is weak...but at least shes back...though the root of the problem hasnt been found yet...guess she needs to go to specialists again to check her problems...

4. and also...of course...ah ma's health...doc says she may only have 2-3months to live...stage 4 cancer....i wouldnt say im very close to her...but i know, shes been a very good grandmother to me...n she is a strong woman...strong, smart, intelligent n ever so caring...there have been miracles, that people go thru cancer treatment n live even when they hit terminal stages...im really hoping for that...

5. becoz of my grandma's condition, there has been lots of arguments within the family...i hate it...i really fucking hate it...esp when those unreasonable, self centred c********s come n talk crap....this is the fuckin reason y i hate them so much...they r so insensitive...dun fuckin mess around with my family....esp with those selfish thoughts of urs...stop being so fuckin obsessed...even if u want to be, be it urself...stop pulling others in to it n start ACCUSING people...its fucking annoying...

6. financial issues...theres so much money problems in the family...partly caused by my mistakes in the past...i feel so guilty abt it...but i guess i really cant do much...ive wasted so much money...n coz of what?coz of stupidity...coz of my stupid hopes...on things i shouldnt waste on...but at least...its made me realise stuff...learn...grow...n stop doing stupid things=x

wow 7. ....i din even realise it was really THIS many lol...7...my dad's talking alot about his business things n getting me involved in it...i guess he really wants me to take over his business...afterall, he really worked hard to bring it up to this level...i do want to help him out...but im really afraid, im not as good as him...hes very smart, n very hardworking n willing to sacrifice so much for the family...i dun think i can b as good a business man and a provider as he is...as much as we quarrel, n dun see things eye to eye...i know he is trying his best to b a good father...n i really love him for this...even though i used to think hes not a good father as hes weak at communicating with us...but i believe, deep down, he loves us...he just doesnt know how to show it well...

8. after my dad, of course, my mom too...well problem with her is probably related to half the things above lol...hmmm scrolling up, i realise...except for the first 2, the others r all related lol...she is really the one who cares the most...n also the one i probably hurt the most...nah not probably, definitely the one i hurt the most=x...n ive learnt one thing from her...nothing is more true than parents' love for their child...i cant say i know for sure for all parents...but at least i know, for mine...i can say im proud to be in this family...proud to b a son of my parents...

well...thats about it i guess...CAN there even be more things than the above?lol...oh yea, just thought of it...school....lol, ill probably screw it up...just really hope i pass=x im really counting on that bit of intelligence inherited from my dad alr lol...i guess i feel better after writing it all out...n all the smses and posts on my fb...the smses really meant alot more though lol...coz i guess...all of the people who smsed me...are important to me...=) n i really thank the few of u...who made a difference in my life...as much as id like to make a difference in urs...

2011-02-12T15:20:00.002+08:00

im really tired...i really dun feel like doing anything alr...idk what im doing some things for anymore...im so tired of this...y isit always like that...m i thinking too immaturely?idk...can someone tell me whats wrong with me?how much of myself do i have to keep, n how much of it m i suppose to change...what makes one special, what makes one odd?y can ppl blend in so well, yet stand out so much, yet i cant do both...im tired...tired of trying...tired of waiting....

2011-01-15T14:57:00.002+08:00

everytime i come back here, its nothing good lol...but i really do feel like shit now...its nice to live in ur fantasy for awhile...but it seriously sux to wake up...nothing has changed i guess...i want to, i desperately want to...i just duno what i can do...im the ugly duckling, except i nvr grew into a swan...the truth of it all, even if i cared for u, u wouldnt care for me as much...n i just love to do that...mayb its retribution...m i really that bad a guy?=x...

i realise...some things...no, many things i tot i was good at?turns out, not even close...idk, can u b good at nothing?im always slower than others...y?!i dun want to b weak...i hate being weak...

2010-12-03T21:19:00.003+08:00

watching all those emo vids...love, true love, sacrificial love...if u love someone, ull b happy for that person as long as u know shes happy...really?if thats how it goes.......

i thought i would really get it off my mind...get it off my heart...but it nvr goes away...everytime i think abt it, it just hurts...i tried pulling myself away but i just cant...yes im that sensitive emo guy...im that stubborn taurean...

the void in me...just grows...

2010-10-23T00:18:00.002+08:00

hmmm...well....at least there are ppl who do care abt u...i know there are ppl there for me too...but they r either ppl who are also having problems of their own, or ppl whom which im the problem...

well good news is i finally contacted min wei :) really miss her sia...shes like my best female, purely platonic fren i have!lol...but she always obsessed with her bf=x aiyz all like that, have bf then ignore liao...but she has her own life la...bf of course more impt la lol..

projects to do....super lazy...i guess im just getting excuses...but i really like to do that when im stressed out...very very bad habit i know...but, just as drinking n taking drugs is to those ppl, it is a way for me to fill up that void inside my heart=x....

you....when will u ever be there for me...i wish so much for it...i really want to give up...im too afraid to give in...yet too afraid to give up too....

2010-10-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

slow bus rides home make my brain think...n thinking has never been good for me lol...

seems like whatever i do, i face the same problem...i thought i improved, but im back to the square one again...n then theres the thing with my sis....n with my performance in front of ppl...im a perfectionist to a certain extent...n its seriously killing me...inferiority is eating me up...im really afraid theres going to b another breakdown...but i guess ive killed all possible lifelines for me...n the ones that used to b around...r all with their own life...

i really envy u...all of u...what must i do to change...to take this part of me out...before it devours me whole...im really too tired to go on like this...

ive always tried to b strong...for many of u...but at the end of the day...i guess...it doesnt matter at all...coz in the end...ill end up hurting all those who care, n get hurt by those who i care for...thats how things go doesnt it?

in the end, no matter how i try, ill still b alone...coz i can never b satisfied, chasing stupid things while holding on to stupid thoughts...

stop fooling urself....

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2010-09-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

suddenly i feel that i consistently have to look for new frens that i can share my woes with...isnt there one person....one very close fren that i can really confide in all the time?haiz...isit me?have i did anything wrong to them?everyone that i thought was my closest frens...r either busy with things all the time, or just busy with their new found other half...everytime i think i found someone i can confide in....they leave....haiz...i really duno if i can really find someone i can talk to any more...i no longer have confidence in everlasting frenship...y isit that i can try so hard to keep in contact but others cant?m i not worth the effort?=x guess not....

2010-09-19T14:15:00.002+08:00

sometimes im really jealous of u all...u have so many ppl who care abt u...who will truly ask how r u n what went wrong right after u express ur displeasures...somehow i dun see myself as having this luxury...im an attention seeker...i really crave for the attention at times...but its really hard...i really hate what im going thru...haiz...

2010-09-13T00:23:00.002+08:00

this blog is about as dead as it gets...lol...but its my own personal space to emo^^ so i shall keep it that way...hmmm things r getting confusing again...n lonely=x...

sometimes i feel...there r not many ppl who i can talk to anymore...numbers r just getting lesser...i mean, sure everyone is entitled to their own lives...n as long as u r not part of it, they will leave u sooner or later...its all part of growing up....

im getting more n more jealous of other ppl...i know the reason y things r like that...but i cant get over myself...but i guess...at the end of the day...its still my own fault...

the one thing i held on to...might b gone...kinda makes me give up hope...everything is so short-lived...was it my fault?m i the cause of things to end so fast?n yet...........

im having this craze again...was it because it nvr ended?im not sure...but its really driving me crazy...

2009-11-30T22:14:00.002+08:00

Things just seem to get further n further from my grasps.
People leaving, drifting apart.
Will I ever find a way to cure myself of this.
I cannot, I only drift further into the darkness.

2009-11-05T20:31:00.002+08:00

this is draining me out...my emotions r rising n falling too rapidly that im beginning to lose control of them...idk what i can do, idk what i shld do...suddenly idk whether i wanna finish my NS...when this is done, id haf to go home...id haf to think of everything, everyday, over n over again...

my life is as such, this is who i m...i m but nobody....

2009-11-05T20:00:00.002+08:00

haiz...whys she always so sensitive...just coz of one small thing what...what did i do wrong sia...haiz sadded...i wanna go out la...but everybody not free one=( y dun i haf a grp of frens who i can always go out with?haiz so no life....

just want to b the someone's centre of attraction...someone who can always b around with me...haiz....things r always so difficult...

I HATE MYSELFLIFE!!!

2009-10-16T17:32:00.001+08:00

haiz....being a good person is hard...worse when u realise ur not doing a good enuf job=x...im soooo tired of it all....crap crap crap.....

2009-10-16T15:36:00.001+08:00

This is y i HATE coming back home....ARGHHHH...fuck la cant give me my own fuckin free time....

2009-10-11T18:31:00.002+08:00

Things are falling apart...my family my relationship...everything i hold dear...alot of things might start to change in the next few years...in fact things are already changing these few years...for the worse....i dunno what the future can hold...no more plans...im very tired...i grow tired of this...

I need to grow out of this....changes has to be done

2009-10-09T22:23:00.002+08:00

I just did the dumbest dumb mistake i ever made...cant believe i couldve said dumber stuff thatn that...wth....wth seriously...shows what i really am...selfish, insensitive...stupid...

2009-10-09T19:53:00.002+08:00

ah back on my dead blog to rant abt stuff no one bothers to read xD oh well its nice to read back old memories now n then anyways, laugh at myself lol...

been going thru some other ppl blogs, those few whose i do visit lol...haiz everytime see so many ppl troubled, ownself oso troubled..though mine...lol shld b not much bah...but as usual, being to more emo me, sure go think abt it until it affects me lol...

this week, damn tired....dunno y...i onli din slp for one night what xD ended up tired the whole week...every break in between, slp, slp, slp...got alot of time?play psp awhile, slp....lol really damn tired...dunno is mentally or physically tired sia...probably both=x

oh wellz at least i got stuff to keep my weekend busy=) thinking of going back to my tkd and/or going out for jogs/rollerblading n stuff...

on a side note, bank running on major deficit...money left at end of the month DEcreases every month=x...dammit need more control

2009-10-03T17:53:00.002+08:00

yawnz...tiring day...tiring as in im damn tired, but din really do anything but sleep lol...slept at abt 4am, woke up at 9am, 11am, 2pm,...lunchtime, went back to slp,....then juz woke up again at arnd 6-_-...physically n mentally shagged out...signs of disliking to come back home liao...not good, not good at all=x...got to hold on to my brain b4 i go nuts again...hate it how qns make me worry again...i need to find more more ways to fill up my time...i dun want free time to think....i dun want to think...i wanna rest....

when will this end........

2009-08-23T02:16:00.003+08:00

ok this blog thing finally back in use again....for the past few times i tried there seems to b abit of problem...so at first already lazy to blog...got problem even more dun feel like blogging lol...

AHM: 21km run....it was....erm...fun?xD k la not bad good experience, got the knee support thingy to prevent my knee from popping...seriously, it felt really bad at the 16km build up run...AND, i got a pacer at the run xD...some girl running the 21km oso...k la besides the fact that i think shes quite nice looking, shes got a good pace for me to follow, so i decided, might as well match her pace=p...haha not that i purposely follow her coz she good looking la, but the pace was really quite well...kinda gay that shes a girl though...i mean, i may not b a fantastic runner, but i aint slow ok?n shes matching up at my pace too...crazy...so many crazy long distance runners....including QT!!!!whos suppose to meet me but left b4 meeting!!!!=(...sad la, suppose to b our first meeting one loh...was kinda looking forward to it too...then she pangseh tsk tsk tsk...oh wellz she promised a meeting after her hols so ill b waiting arh!=p
oh yea got my timing for the run already : 2hours 17mins not bad considering my knee injury=p

n well today(or rather ytd, considering the time=p) met up with shawn tien, tien cheng, jessen, wen chong, yong qiang for lan gaming, n kinda gathering too...saw andeus at the lan shop too haha so long din see him liao...MR andeus quek=x...haiz when will my rank become MR =p
anyways, kena owned la in dota...been how long since i played liao...so many things changed le...cant even rmb what to buy, where to buy=x...not like i was much of a good player last time either...then now yong qiang so pro liao...everytime i opposing team one lol...same lane as him some more...damn sian...the onli decent game i got was probably the one using rhasta...probably the onli familiar character i used...got couple of kills with it too=p...anyways that was quite late le la...

ooo tml(as in 24aug) my sis bday liao...duno the present she will like anot, this time not the usual stuff toy liao lol...whenever i get a present for someone close i will give thought to it one hor!take alot of time thinking b4 getting a present one=p...

oh yea finally met up with JY also!haha finally managed to get her out to watch movie=p still refuses to arcade though=p stubborn lil elephant=p looked different from how she looked in pics though...not that chubby, n look more cheena xD...grabbed her out to shop with me for my sis present the other day as well =p haha cmon its juz shopping rite?=p no harm accompanying me mah since live so near jp nia=p

on a side note: dun give me ur fukin excuses...onli a guilty person will come n make up excuses...telling me all that crap onli makes me feel more disgusted abt u...when can u start growing up u fukin loser :rolls eyes: next time, im avoiding this kinda shit already...dun wanna b involved with ur crap again

2009-08-01T18:50:00.000+08:00

haiz bad mood=x....sian, mood still carried forward from ytd...not much appetite these days...haiz something is wrong la...im letting little things affect me alot...putting too much into little things...but the thing is....i dun haf other things to put on....haiz...feel so empty

2009-07-30T22:58:00.001+08:00

went for cohesion at chijmes today...damn sian la some indian restaurant...seriously me?in an indian restaurant?i dun eat curry, i dun eat spicy food....that leaves what?rice n fruits?=x....argh whatever la...juz ate abit...anyways paid for it already...well at least watching transformers there was ok...at the start was real boring though...everyone juz sitting around, waiting for the food to come...n they sure took hella long to prepare...geez...really bad, nvr gonna go back there ever...

anyways, later went out with jonnie chan go walk walk...tot wuld spend most of the time in the arcade as well, but we really din stay long there at all lol..went beach road buy stuff then went plaza sing walk walk...going to beach road was the long part, coz we werent sure how to get there, so we were mostly walking around, took one bus to the other end of beach road n started walking(as well as running) down the freaking-hell-wtf-long road...okok we shall take the bus next time lol

at plaza sing was quite cool...we spent awhile walking around until we walked to the yamaha shop...spent most of our time there...doing what?enjoying the music lol...there was this girl playing the piano...long time since i went to listen to piano music with a quiet background...rather soothing....i admit its quite attractive for a girl to play a beautiful piece with a musical instrument lol...anyways, jon played along abit as well on another piano=p...for awhile la, b4 we ran out of time coz he had to go back to the station tonight....

hmm this time the trip back home had its share of interesting encounters too...met leonard on the mrt, which was quite cool, considering we both left at differnt times...he was going to book in la(i dun need coz on off for doing some event the prev day)...more interesting was there was this nj girl who was inside...she was crying sia...anyways, with her was this butch...at first tot it was a guy(seriously she TOTALLY looks like a guy) but later noticed that she was a girl=x...hmm i know i kpoh la...but see her sad oso feel bad mah...how often do u see ppl cry in the mrt anyways=x...anyways juz for the records la=p

2009-07-18T23:36:00.002+08:00

tiring week sia....last night wanted to blog de...but by the time i did the rest of the things i wanted to do....damn freaking tired to blog liao=x....sianz arh!....clocked 30km on foot in a week...lets recap on the week's programme:

Monday: 5km Life Run, ACCT(Advanced Close Combat Training, involves throwing, break falls n lotsa shit that makes u cause injury to urself n others=x)

Tuesday: ACCT, 10km Macritchie Run (yes 2 rounds around that reservoir...hella mad)

Wednesday: 6km "route march"(seriously what kinda route march goes at 1km per 10mins-_-), ACCT

Thursday: ACCT, ACCT(2 lessons, morning n afternoon)(this is the best rest time we got already)

Friday: 9km fast march(same speed), ACCT

next week another 12km fast march, 12km run(mayb), 14km run-_-....my legs r so freakin dying....

2009-07-12T17:17:00.002+08:00

whats left, whos left, what can i do....haiz tired....gibbering rubbish out of my head already....i hate not knowing....tired, tired of guessing...tired of hoping...tired....can give me one week to b able to do nothing but sleep?then dun think of anything...juz sleep...comatose state xD...i need to make myself more normal=x...

2009-06-27T23:12:00.002+08:00

Interesting review i got from peiqi mei's blog....not bad seems quite true xD

Your view on yourself:Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education: Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

2009-06-20T16:18:00.003+08:00

gahhhhh sux man...tml got guard duty...wah loah eh anyhow push to me sia...knn pissed la arhhhh....duno y today so pissed...rmb that liao i juz felt damn pissed thats all i know....fuck man...cheebye...gahh....

last night went out with brandon(and supposedly guo hui who from around 8pm drag until 11pm havnt book out=x)....ended up walking with brandon around orchard aimlessly...some kind of outing sia damn...k la not gh fault oso la, but really damn sian sia....bloated myself with the slurpee n starbucks java chip venti(tall is too small, grande is ok but adding 50c for venti was too tempting=x... n besides, i hate seeing the ice melt n me not drinking it...so i just HAD to finish the drink=p)

probably rotting my day off today...haiz another lifeless weekend...

haiz finally decided to do it...n everyone close to me is happy-_-...wth sia seriously man...'congratz', 'finally' r words i hear more often than 'sorry to hear that'....give me a break man geez...

conclusion: my life?probably as dead as this blog...someone help me revive myself PLZ....

2009-06-14T19:46:00.002+08:00

haiz one more down...sianz was juz talking abt it with him that day, then ytd he break liao...sia la like i cause it like that sia...damn sian lol...haiz now season isit....so many ppl breakin up...i onli think nia, havnt action they all already break liao...haiz but im still pondering over my choice sia...this is even tougher than choosing which course i want to put for uni lol.....gahhhh irritating...keep telling myself ok im going to do it im going to do it...but whenever i get the call...i still cant bring myself to do it...gahh....WHY WHY WHY.....someone tell me what to do sia...

2009-06-06T01:16:00.002+08:00

wow....this blog is sooooo dead xD....last post erm...december?xD lol

today went out with xiao mei TAN peiqi...must specify later ppl dunno which one xD...watched terminator: salvation....not bad la....i like the robots...like transformers like that sia lol....haiz how long din go watch movie liao sia....sianz arh...now leave oso nothing much to do....gahhh i need a life man....

ok stress now....decisions decisions.....shld i or shld i not....seriously ive been given alot of thoughts to it....almost every close fren agrees to it....but im still not sure....its really not easy....not something i can juz do easily.....haiz....hopefully the time comes soon for me to go thru my decision....to finally decide the outcome=x...

2008-12-15T18:11:00.003+08:00

gahhh can onli use army com now grr.....house com spoil le so cant online for sometime le i guess...until someone finally tries to fix the com or get someone to fix it loh...haiz cant even go tagged WHY!!???kena classified as adult/mature content....kaohz tagged leh....sian tiaoz loh...hopefully can get back my com....but next time oso may not b online as often as last time le...decided to dedicate more time outside of my computer finally xD see how things go la, see how things go....

2008-11-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

ooo bookout le..aiya but in camp oso ok de la...now so slack lol....except for today's soc....ok la at least 1st year soc cleared!let ippt then nothing le...hopefully still slack all the way xD..hmm my suainess seems to b clear up some le =x...well hopefully it gets better soon=p hope ah ma get better soon oso sia...in hospital so chum now...haiz...tml going to look after her with my mum overnight...

today went to watch four christmases for army cohesion...ok la the show....show the typical american family problem show one la...was at causeway point...then after the show come down, saw meizhen n her baby!wah eh not bad wor quite cute de lol...2mths old baby...wouldve taken a pic of the baby if i had a camera with me...oh wellz she shld haf pics online de la lol...aiyz, now at home dunno do what again...sian arh......wanna go out sia grrrr.....

2008-11-23T00:20:00.003+08:00

going to Kbox tml...hope can sing it all out...haiz, miss clubbing...place to let myself loose...mayb K can le bah...try la see how...need to get this feeling off my chest....feels damn uncomfortable...

2008-11-23T00:11:00.002+08:00

Things...r not going well....very worried for tuesday now...everything has been going wrong...seriously...everything....relationship, injuries, loss of items, quarrels, health, computer...if things go wrong on tuesday, it is reali goin to b real bad....plz pray for things to go well....tired....juz...tired...

2008-11-18T23:33:00.003+08:00

she called.....finally....first time after she msged me that msg....i calmly agreed to her request...i was tired of trying so many times...probably, part of me knew that i had to let her go, to let her b on her own, so that she might b happier...part of me may haf wanted to let go of this too, coz its pulling me down alot too...but when she was fell aslp...she said those 3 words...my heart melted...i knew i couldnt let go....it hurts so much to know she still loves me, yet she has to let me go...idk what to do...when is the torture gonna end...when will it all become well....

2008-11-17T13:54:00.009+08:00

its been a LONG 3 weeks....n its finally OVER!!!!!!YAY!!!!aiyz...3 weeks of torture, 1 week of pain, 2 days of shopping, money's all drained=p lol...1 week of pain was more mental n emotional than physical bah...but that is for ppl to ask if they wanna knw...some things cant b written here, cant b bothered to write them here n dun feel like writing them here as well=p...well at least this time i uploaded the pictures into my com earlier!!!so i can post them up now le...not much pics la, mostly on the last 3 days(coz thats when its more civi life than the 'no pics' period)...anyways, on the whole, great experience, once in a lifetime(definitely NOT gonna do that shit again)...nvr felt so tired b4...so shag...but its all past!!

k on the whole,

weather: hot in the start, cold in the end...humidity level very low...heat due to sunlight onli...as long as there is shade, itll b cooling...cold, cant avoid...wind there like standing in from of the aircon, except that the outlet of the aircon is as big as a mansion's door=x...the wind blow until our bikes oso unstable sia, thats how strong it is...

places: tainan: village, mountains, farms, mountains, mountains....what u expect us to see...the onli places we went to r mountains...btw...its on FOOT....the nicer the scenery, the worse we feel(nice scenery=higher ground=FREAKING LOT OF TRACKS TO WALK)

taizhong: mountains mountains mountains MOUNTAINS...yep thats abt it...xD

taipei: woooo shopping!clothes there nice n cheap...bought a whole set from top to bottom...1 beanie, 1 jacket, 1 overlay, 1 long sleeve shirt, 1 pair of jeans, 1 pair of shoes...basically besides my underwear n socks, everything else was new xD...bought lotsa food oso at the rest points...damn nice but very ex some...so bought abit for family eat onli...reali nice place to shop, esp since my hotel was at ximending....go down is shop already xD...wufenpu oso very nice place to shop...next time come shop again xD

ok now for the photos=)

the sunrise from the plane

delicacies of xiaokenting(the egg tart thingy was mine=p)

sulphuric steams

hot springs!....uber mini versions xD

the sulphur holes

hot mud xD

wakeup hair...nice mountains though xD(din

haf to climb that, so its nice xD)

walked 20+mins for this stupid flower clock...waste my time

woots, my nice 'beard'...4 stitches thick xD

no stitches for this one, juz 4 dents xD

me in our hotel(what im lacking is my beanie, then its my full set xD)

outside taipei airport onward to singapore!

cute nursing room lol

the plane back home!

k that wasnt all the pics la, but couldnt b bothered with the few left...din reali take much pics anyways as mentioned...but few of the more impt pics, uploaded le(esp the scars woots xD)...finally rest at home xD

2008-10-12T11:40:00.003+08:00

gahhh....knw y i dun like to put in effort?coz everytime i do, i get a worse outcome....wtf irritating....aiyz, lately temper gettin bad la...and....another part of me changing oso...haiz...afraid of what i might become...i might start doing alot of things i will regret...dunno la....all these crapshit is screwing my brains out argh....

2008-09-11T20:14:00.003+08:00

wooo home!!!!haha...actuali tml oso bookin out le mah....oh well, anyway camp oso quite near la so nvm la=p...

aiyz tired sia...had our long walk....like hella long walk...had alot of rest points but....juz for a few mins...starts from mandai, where we haf our navigation first...go around checkpoints...then from there, walk alllll the way to lorong asrama...there, another 3 checkpoints..then from there, alll the way back to camp-_-.....some more they purposely make us detour:'(.....n allllll this....with a freakin 20++kg field pack!!!!-_-....FBO walk all sia....thats like after 1 mth of bike course, without physical trainin to keep fit la!!!!....wahhh damn shag sia...heard its like arnd 30km...from tuesday 12pm we leave, wednesday 10am we come back....no sleep0.0....after that was knockout at our bunks sia...nvr walked so much in 2 days in my life, not forgettin with the freakin heavy load....darn la later make me shorter-_-...not like im tall now la wah laoh...haiz sadded...oh well, not much time left oso...gotta book in again later...this was nights out nia hahaha....mainly came back for my psp=p n the nice shower lol....shall update my bikin in-camp next time...hmm....if i remember la lol...a couple of accidents=p

2008-09-07T17:21:00.003+08:00

AHHHH going back to unit le!!!!!...no more com everyday, no more psp, no more air-conditioned room to slp in, no more FRESH AIR OF FREEDOM.....arghhh....bike course still can slack slack, everything slowly do, talk cock, lac lac arnd....haiz...no more...heart tremble everyday....FEAR~!!!!!....its actuali reali quite scary to go back there again lol...always hated being formal n stuff...how nice if ns can b casual with everyone but still with respect....aiyz perfection can nvr b achieved....near perfection is hardly ever possible...flaws and imperfections are always in abundance=x....argh...life sux, live with it

2008-09-02T20:23:00.002+08:00

wah so long din update again lol...haiz bike course v tiring mah...oso lazy update la lol...well now already ride islandwide le....rode from bedok to jurong....wah so tempted to turn in n go straight home sia lol...so near nia aiyz...but haf to continue journey, go to west coast carpark...car park nia loh, not even the park lol...rest there then return back to bedok le...1 hr ride there n back...tiring sia ride bike...n on that lousy bike onli can reach 60km/h nia=p see all the vehicles vroom past us oso sian tiao....even bus oso can overtake us la lol...but not bad la still fun...on bike n in car experience reali alot diff sia...will miss riding motorbike=x probably wun haf any chance to ride in the future le lol...(mum dun allow, gf dun allow, what to do?=p)

sian la see ppl holiday me still on course in green aiyz...but nt bad lah, jp alot of chiobu today hahaha....k la chiobu is for see see nia....gf will always b more impt de=p lol...but damn sian la everyone so free, onli we still stuck in camp aiyz...some more next week going back kranji le....
advantages: get to haf more sleep coz dun nid to travel so far
3 meals a day r provided so no nid waste money=p
disadvantages: got to listen to commands or get fucked again-_-
wake up seeing the bunk, wondering y the fuck m i here
wondering when we r gonna get fucked again for reasons we know or duno=x
time for our muscles to ache n tire out like hell again

stay out is always better la, no matter how much less slp we get lol...seeing our home sweet home nvr felt as good as when ur in the army=p

2008-08-02T15:42:00.002+08:00

gahhhh shoes oso can missing.....grrr....irritating la....wahhh whrs my shoe....aiyz now i wan go jog then no shoes...nb...still haf to wait for the stupid ops thingy...then cant go movie oso...scared later movie halfway tio called back...sianz...wtf la....gahh.....pissed....

2008-07-27T17:43:00.002+08:00

its sunday again...hmm what haf i done this week...medic course, stupid turnouts....oh yea i realise how dangerous IV drips can b=x...got bubble go inside ur veins then is GG for u xD...10cc of air can kill a person wow....how much is 10cc anyways =x....all i knw is do the test that time i dun dare open the valve xD...siao eh reali can die one leh....dammit, reminds me that we r sooo underpaid for this kinda shit...aiyz suai is suai loh...bo bian...too healthy oso problem haiz lol....oh well at least gettin over with AIT alrdy...bike course more slack...8-5 =)...aiyz but for now...still got my 12km route march to go.....wahhhhh i dun wan to march le la!!!!!!!!!!='(

2008-07-19T13:21:00.002+08:00

烦死啊!!!!!!gahhhh.....i free then cant find ppl, i not free then got ppl free....WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!gahhhh....so pissed....grrr....last week pt week, pt until dying liao...this week field camp, monday to wed, navigation course....morning wake up navigation with 20+kg field pack, navi until lunchtime, then after lunch, navi again, then rest, then navi again then slp-_-...repeat for another 2 consecutive days....shag....then the last 2 days, area cleaning....45 mistakes on first day, 36 mistakes on friday...kaohz...lucky they punish 1:1 ratio nia...otherwise until ord oso cant clear liao =x....haiz sianz....i need a new bag n new clothes sia....irritating....烦死啊!!!!!!

2008-07-04T15:31:00.002+08:00

brigade anniversary....went to watch Hancock....ok la the movie generally still ok la....for others mayb u all will like la, but i dun like the show la...2 meant-to-b-together ppl muz stay apart...wth...hate this kinda shit...some more is must, or they will most probably die...sianz...but the concept of it still not bad la...at least its something new=x...n at least its free lol...but wake up so early go watch movie then come back....later book in again coz haf to do saigang tml...haiz....sianz....

2008-07-04T14:53:00.002+08:00

duno where to go...what to do....what to look forward to...idk...everyone looks forward to something in life rite?so what shld i b looking forward to?is there any motivation for me to live my life with?duno bah...recently juz feel very empty...cant seem to fill it up with anything....lol now i knw what the empty feeling theyve been talking abt in shows mean....i reali want ppl arnd, but yet i dun think ill want them arnd....im still immature....too immature...

2008-06-29T15:32:00.002+08:00

book in le....sianz....aiyz duno that sms shld send anot...dowan later send out le i feel guilty again...but if dun send out,....aiyz duno la...oh well at least in camp got things to do, frens to talk to...then wun think so much....not like at home....everyone working, schooling or in camp training...want to jio ppl out oso so difficult haiz....k la need to go soon for my sis concert thing le...hope b back signing in here on friday=x

2008-06-23T19:57:00.003+08:00

song boh!book in a few hrs book out liao xD...but force us use leave la...think is coz next time no chance for us to use leave coz all the courses n stuff, so let us clear leave now...aiyz they say training will b xiong leh....die la...oh well at least most probably can go home de la....not like ocs anything oso will kena confined....too scary for me xD...tough trainin, as long as i dun die think still ok la...but if dun let me go home....thats quite mentally tough for me la lol...need time to relax ourselves mah=p aiyz but seems like days r gonna b tough next time....first day few hours onli, kena 25 pushups liao xD sian tiao sia...but the place looks fine la...at least can see HDB flats hor, feel better oso, better than at tekong, so far from civilisation=.=...this one book out is civilization liao lol...aiyz but haf to train oso bah, prepare to let my muscles die=x....

2008-06-22T20:50:00.003+08:00

Tomorrow book in unit le!!!!!sianz....tired sia, juz spent the whole day ice skating....my backwards not bad le, juz that my turning from back to forward n vice versa still not very good=p...eh but i go ice skating less than 10 times leh....abt 5 times onli wor considered not bad improvement le loh lol....aiyz leg tired sia...later tml start PT i die la...tired....better go slp soon le, been tauning overnight so many times....better haf more rest today, next time no chance le=x...

2008-06-21T23:56:00.002+08:00

haiz losing track of myself again...sometimes reali wonder who i m...what kinda person do i seem like to ppl?what kinda person m i?what do i wan to become?they say teenage years r times when ppl find their identity n stuff, i reach end of teenage years liao, i still not sure who i m...aiyz so much things on my mind, cant find ppl to go club with me oso...duno what else to do to let things off my mind sia....headache, headache....juz wanna lose myself to the music......

2008-06-20T21:56:00.005+08:00

hohooho i get into recce troopers leh.....shengwei say super gg xD.....heard so many ppl say damn xiong....think i better get ready to go n kill myself inside there xD....die la die la...mayb is juz the guards recce more tough la....hope i dun get in that =x....aiyz better prepare myself for some hardcore training....

anyways today....went ice skating!yay finally get to ice skate again...n i finally can skate backwards le=P k la but still not very stable but good enough la lol...i want to learn all the cool moves oso...but i think some need to buy the skating shoes then better la...coz the rented shoes cannot make stable one la...will twist de coz the sides soft=x....so now thinking whether i shld buy anot....mayb after NS bah....or mayb weekends can go ice skate?....aiyz lately so many things to think of buying....lappy, PS3, clothings, magazines, food......well at least i go in recce the pay will b better than if i went in CCI or other units i think....definitely wun b better than officer la but i dun wan b officer la=x

went to take a few neoprints with my sis n cousins after our iceskating:

i look their age rite?xD....oh yea this morning(as in 12am onwards) went out with vincent, brandon n guo hui watch portugal vs germany....vincent say we all look younger with our bald heads....with hair i alrdy look yng la, without hair look ynger?song boh xD...got kid look sia...oh n back to the match....portugal....haiz disappointing sia....christiano duno what he shooting leh...all his shots sure hit somebody one xD...n simao aiming sux la....seriously....sux...lol...i think germany played well though i support portugal de actuali...the first goal was the best la still...the shots so chio lol...aiyz tok so much...like i watch alot of soccer liddat=p onli watch when frens...correction, when my BUDDIES call me to watch(usually normal frens ask me i wun watch de, too lazy xD)....anyways, rock on Arsenal!!!!will always support the gunners!!!!YEA!

2008-06-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

hmm...today whole day quite emo la...been thinking abt things n stuff loh...esp come online le see more n more ppl having their problems....wish everyone who has problems now, whether isit relationship, family or friends, hopefully get their problems solved or at least lightened soon...haiz, my own problems leh?....suck it up lol....

2008-06-14T21:23:00.002+08:00

aiyz i realise no matter how much i try to get away from my night life, ill still get stuck on staying up late...luv the night too much sia lol...the peacefulness, the silence, the tranquility of darkness ;)....night is nice, i always prefer the night than the day, though i always prefer company than to b alone...when im kept alone too much i become another person la...thinking too much is bad for health, seriously xD....but army makes us think too lil la....making me stupid liao...n less healthy i think, recently my medication actuali starts to make me drowsy(last time nvr happen b4 de)...darn its irritating la, makes me waste my whole day coz dun feel like doing much...takes so much more effort to get things done...even so, i still keep to my night life xD...luving it too much=p

2008-06-10T22:14:00.002+08:00

POP lo!!!!!!!k la oso not that excited to pop oso...bmt was gettin slack n quite nice to get on by alrdy la...go unit will suffer more=x lol...moreover got to leave all my orion 4 frens le=( awww.....lol k la mixed bunch of ppl...but still best platoon to b in!Orion!!!!!Platoon 4!!!!REAL MEN!!!!rock on guys, u guys r the best...we haf company best shot, 4 A student Chan Kwok Ho!!!!!we haf campany best PT, the fit n strong Daniel Xu!!!!!also, the platoon best of the best platoon, Gee Ming Wei!!!!!n of course, last but definitely not least, ur best of the bestest, company best, Alexi Lim!!!!!!!!!all the best r in platoon 4 la what can i say=p...even self-proclaimed company best smoker, lance corporal dalvir singh oso our platoon=p lol...will miss all the crap, the fun and the torture we had with each other=p rock on guys!!!!!

2008-05-18T14:46:00.003+08:00

back from field camp!woots bmt pass liao...shooting n field camp over...ippt can heck care alrdy xD...wah 5 days din water bath, onli powder bath....k la powder bath u wun feel sticky n stuff but doesnt give u that satisfaction of bathing in water=p...the worst thing is still being in the super dirty clothes la...got one set i wore for 3 days sia, damn wet n dirty....feel so bacteria-filled=x...luckily i din reali get much heat rash la juz a bit at my back...this time field camp...still not bad la...except that i got confined la...damnit coz of some stupid thing, grrr.....could haf been worse la but still....haiz....damn suai la thats all i can say...

but actuali this time the confinement onli half a day la so isnt that bad oso...even platoon sergeant oso say its the shortest confinement he ever gave out sia lol...lucky got vesak day loh...oh well but had fun during confinement oso la...juz slack arnd, talk cock...not bad la treat it as outing with frens loh xD....the main disadvantage i feel is that scared not enough time for my clothes to dry nia...haf to wash almost all of my no. 4s...all so damn dirty sia....n my LBV...the LBV seriously stinks la, that one reali need to wash le la now lol...

the rations....i dun tink it was that bad la actuali...still ok la...tasted worse stuff b4 n it aint even cheap...dog biscuits nice to spam la...i love spamming biscuits=p duno y so many ppl dun want...dun want i take loh xD...got 42 packets to eat sia lol...instant noodles i oso took alot...n the fruit bars, drink sachets....yea i took lotsa shit from ppl lol...free things mah...ppl dowan i take loh=p

ok one thing abt field camp...if ur ok with the repellent, use it...its damn useful...but of course if, like me, u put abit then ur skin there start to feel a lil pain n swell...dun play with it la...heard got cause ppl the flesh to juz drop of coz of its corrosiveness b4 =x....thats y i dun dare put...but of course both come at a risk la...its either u put a bit n hope ur skin isnt as sensitive as mine was...or u let ur exposed areas b the locals buffet=p btw, left hand last count:17 mosquito bites, right hand:19 mosquito bites....havnt count my leg ones=p (got a few there la but duno how they bit my legs with my pants on oso =x)

k la overall field camp was alrite coz 2 guys kena heat exhaustion, 1 got sent back by heli some more....din drink up enough la those guys...then in the end thanks to them we got some activities cancelled...so...yea quite slack la actuali lol...mentally exhausting, but physically quite ok la...(oh n if u can build the shellscrape in less than 2hrs, good for u coz im fukin tired of digging that, finishing it then right after finishing i had to close back again-_-)

2008-05-03T19:11:00.003+08:00

HUNGRY!!!!!....but cant eat....stomach empty empty de but anything i consume, comes out the same way it went in...fuck man...ytd onli ate half of lunch n 2 spoons of dinner....which i later vomitted all out so doesnt reali matter...today managed to contain the porridge inside me...but lunch got vomitted all out too-_-...seriously i rather b in RT...now i got an empty stomach that feels like it wants to come out of my mouth too, n a headache which gives me fever on n off thruout the whole day....PT feels better than this...i feel like im an aneroxic patient man...k la go rest le....slp on my empty stomach=x....

2008-05-01T08:55:00.002+08:00

ytd book out today book in liao....sianz....then saturday morning book out, at night book in for RT coz i failed my chin ups-_-...sia la they say is train onli the stations u fail...i onli fail chin ups then whole few hours do chin ups?=x...sia la my arms r gonna break le la...haiz dun like to go back sia....everytime kena tekan for stupid reasons....oh well thats army life bah...field camp comin soon oso...got to slp with the worms n centipedes le=x...6 days....wonder how life wuld b like....

2008-04-27T14:46:00.003+08:00

today is BOOK-IN DAY!!!!!!!darn...so fast book in again....ok so far, what haf i been doing...eat, sleep, blog, chat.....eat......eat......xD 1st day went swensens eat ice cream, 2nd day, breakfast, egg tarts, went out with guo hui buy camp stuff n ate claypot rice(my dad can cook very nice one oso=p but no time la), dinner ate at the western japanese restaurant(which i always cant rmb the name but its @central there, corner shop), ate omu-rice with mushroom cream sauce(heavenly =D), today breakfast, macdonald's big breakfast, egg tarts,....snacks thruout weekend include bahkua, the crispy one n the original one and one more circular one n crispy(all damn nice xD) and soft ice cream at @central =p...good food is pleasure!xD but sadded haf to go back to army food soon haiz....oh well i can endure!gambate....

2008-04-26T23:02:00.002+08:00

end of saturday le!!!!!so fast tml book in again-_-....sianz arh...tired liao....today muz slp until shuang xD....hmm this yr first time nearly forgot abt my own ******** =x lol....aiyz days go past without me remembering or taking note of whatever happened in the days that went by....1 thing for sure though...i miss my life=x...frens, family n of course...her=) well its back to camp tml le...guess haf to juz try to get used to it bah...hoping to get into instructor....at least i get to learn other martial arts, get fit n get to go home...everything that interests me lol...hard chance though....onli 10 chosen from the whole of pulau tekong xD....can onli hope bah....

call finally got thru^^...glad to hear that shes fine...reali matters to me alot, these short conversations...onli wish they could last longer.....

2008-04-26T09:30:00.002+08:00

ahhhh....so long din haf a good slp alrdy...still feels weird waking up so early when im at home haha...haiz later still haf to go buy army camp stuff....dun reali feel like going out actuali...juz wanna nua at home lol...

k la now abt army...1st few days was reali bad...at first it was juz physically cant take it...then the tiredness n stuff + all the shit we r getting bcoz of some crap reali got to me emotionally too...but slowly got better le la...the onli thing i scared now is when i go back to camp from bookout....will b harder to adjust back again bah i scared...moreover my ippt sure fail one...so sure tio RT then got much less time home again...i dun like not being able to contact ppl whenever i want to...but at least frens in there r fun la....ORION!PLATOON 4!!!!!!REAL MEN!!!!not bad la the platoon...id say we r a fun bunch la...especially my section=p got lotsa kinds of ppl la actuali...so quite fun to hang arnd each other oso...

army life....not my type of lifestyle la...as in not something i can actuali get used to till the point of being comfortable in it..dun like regimentation n being away from my family n frens...so im more of there to serve my time then get over with it lol...ill still put in my effort la, juz that it takes the extra effort to push myself to make the extra effort xD...

missing her...she fell sick n the stupid **** shes in wun let her tell anyone abt it...dun even let her get to a hospital outside or anything....damnit...today she shld haf her hp with her...y still cant contact her...worried for her alot...plz bless her with safety n health...dun wish to lose her

2008-04-25T23:06:00.001+08:00

BOOKOUT LE!!!!!!!!!!knn damn tired....juz come online keep my social circle active...shall update tml....1 word to summarise BMT....SHAG!!!!!!!

2008-04-08T18:15:00.004+08:00

tomorrow botak liao!!!!grrr....MY HAIR!!!!!!wah very hard to grow so long de leh....aiyz now is gone for 2 weeks le....n i wun see my hair long again for another 2 years!!!!!wahhh.....duno after NS need to liu for how long sia...show u my hair before it gets cut xD

not bad rite....i still think fringe not long enough=p....but bo bian no time leave longer le lol....tml i shall b BOTAK!!!!!!....omg cant imagine how that looks like....ive nvr been anywhr near that b4 xD....fyi i was born with nice black hair oso xD....so yea...first time botak=p....after i come back from my 2weeks in tekong then i upload botak pic xD....see how la if too ugly then dun put lol...otherwise find other ppl take together!!!all the botaks xD

k la now feel quite tired le....din slp last night xD...another of my nights spent awake=p...told u all i nocturnal le lol...but this time is din slp la...not that i nervous or what, juz ytd juz nice thinking abt lotsa stuff then cant slp...so went to do some housework until my mum woke up loh....clean up the house a lil b4 i leave bah=)but now reali abit exhausted...fell aslp for a few mins every now n then in the day...ytd watching 黑糖玛奇朵...or rather is re-watching the whole series lol....nice leh....鬼鬼 very cute!!!!lol n these few days keep gettin the show de songs in my head...one of which...苦茶!

微微笑的看你越是认真就越让人心疼
街头那盏路灯仿佛在笑我愚笨
没什么能做但我比谁都真城
泡一杯苦茶陪伴你到夜深
你知不知道你总有一种能可爱的独特
让我充满勇气抵抗冬天的寒冷
怎样做才会完美像个男人
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温
不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒
我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧

你知不知道我也有一种很可爱的天真
大男孩的口吻魅力加到一万分
怎样做才会完美像个男人(像个男人)
喝一杯苦茶温暖你的体温
不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒
我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你这一刻只想把你抱紧

虽然永远还不可能少了你的完整(少了你的完整)
两个对的人奇迹就能发生喔
不用等你开口先说我爱你(我爱你)
在那之前想对你说我愿意(我愿意)
你不必问你也不必等
这一刻就值得爱到永恒
我该如何让你明白我爱你(我爱你)
在那之后你点头说我愿意(我愿意)
想照顾你想守护着你
这一刻只想把你抱紧
这一刻只想把你抱紧

2008-04-07T00:52:00.004+08:00

haiz y alot of ppl cant understand that trust has to b earnt n not given so easily....sometimes ppl can b quite stubborn la haiz...lotsa problems i can help solve when im not directly involve la...but when its my own stuff, seriously hard to interfere la...esp when i dun get information i need....if onli ppl could tell everything to everyone....then i can know what to do, what to solve what to analyse...

2 days to NS!!!!grrr....so fast...havnt pack my bag lol...everyone keep asking whether im nervous or scared anot....im like...what thing....ns ns loh lol...actuali the onli thing i dun like abt it is being uncontactable with my frens, family, girlfren =p lol.....well anyways now she oso busy la, so oso cant contact much....thats y NS for me reali ntg much leh....im not reali doing anything to my life now oso...goin in NS at least gives me something to do loh...let time pass faster oso, so wun think too much=p....for those who know abt the 3 years wait, u all shld know y need to make time pass faster la hor lol...

EH!i still havnt go ice skating la!!!!wah laoh....seriously cant get ppl go loh...unless i mix n match then mayb can...u see the prob is my frens is all from different place ren shi one...if all come together....i will abit awkward leh...feel so weird de...aiyz, see how la....left 2 days oso dun tink can get anyone out le....

OH YEA the stupid pics not here yet xD.....k la quite dumb le take so long, but bo bian mah my dad busy...hmm my relation with him getting better le, but my sis....getting farther le she....reali worried la for her....dowan to see this family fall apart=(

2008-04-02T17:12:00.002+08:00

today went to help my dad with hi deliveries again....haiz suppose to go ice skating de loh!stupid luna no money=p....then liang oso not free, go sao mu....eh wth la...very soon gona go camp liao leh=x....I WANT TO GO ICE SKATING!anyone interested?contact me....yea seriously ANYONE xD....im bored=p

aiyz after delivery, we went to lunch...ate laksa at the....centrepoint isit?darn forgot the place name again...the place near novena....go eat katong laksa...there not bad la, juz that the spice is makes me tingly....i eat certain spicy food my scalp will itch de....duno y...my dad say mayb allergy...duno la but my scalp has always been very sensitive...if too dusty will itch oso...grrr irritating....

dowan stay at home le leh...i slack until sian liao...but duno can jio who out, go whr....everything like sian liao....so now is juz stay at home play cabal=p...whr i skip from guild to guild xD lol....not that i enjoy skipping arnd la....juz that some guilds v sian mah...no one talk to me i get bored one lol....lvl 53 blader!mercury, SpeedDemonAD....come find me if u play oso=p....

2008-04-01T01:54:00.003+08:00

ok i tot i rmbed writing an entry after i came back from japan....either i write halfway close, or some false memory popped up=p(btw false memories do happen, some ppl can create entire lifetimes that dun even exist, totally cool eh?makes u wonder whether ur real anot=x)...anyways, JAPAN WAS FUN!ok a bit late to update that...but...cmon!i was waiting for the pics to come....how i knw it wuld take so long lol....anyways, short summary of japan trip(real short=p)
day1:find hotel, find way to get to nearest train station, slp=p(discovery of warm toilet seats xD)
day2:DISNEYLAND!(fuking cold fuking cold fuking cold....)
day3:disneysea(nearly lost my bag=x)
day4:Mt fuji(damnit couldnt even get to 3rd/5 lvls -_-...stupid trip), onward to next hotel(grand hyatt WOOTS!got pics of the hotel room=p damn nice....1 night S$1k, of course nice la xD)
day5:SKIING!!!!!omg i sooooo luv skiing....i soooo wanna ski again loh!!!!!!!!!!grr....some day im gona earn enough money n go there to ski whole day!!!!!WEEE xD
day6:this day is dedicated to shoppin onli=p din buy much though, coz we spent like DAMN LOT in the past few days(esp at disney=x)

bought lotsa prezzies!lol....for my best m8s=p there the things ex la...cant buy too much oso...eh at least i bought for my besties!better appreciate=p lol...reciprocating will b nice lol...at least get me a present la for my bday....past years like getting lesser n MUCH lesser presents le=p lol....

when the pics r here, ill give a fuller update of the trip bah=p, now for after trip updates

ok, with BCD, BD, cant reali choose many courses la...so anyways, after got back from japan, had been thinking abt it loh....anyways i decided on
NTU: sociology, engineering, then the other engineering stuff....
NUS: Real estate(this is often mistaken, doesnt mean i onli end up as a property agent=x), FASS(for sociology), then engineering n other engineering courses

engineering is like...coz im good in physics n maths, so....juz try loh....actuali i oso dun reali knw whether ill b happy with it, but....juz try la...reali hope i can get into real estate or sociology though...those is what i reali want de...

k la getting late le(2.19am now=p considered early for my normal days though lol), got to get up early later to help my dad with some goods moving(dun think lightly of it, his goods damn heavy la can!lol)....pre-army training?xD

2008-03-19T23:35:00.003+08:00

back from japan!the pics r still at my dad's com la so cant post them out yet...anyways!bought some stuff for few of my close frens(eh ex leh, better b appreciative=p)...

nice place there sia, learnt alot from their culture loh....one thing abt japan, the ppl there reali very courteous xD...the most common phrase i hear in lifts is sumenasai, gomenasai *meaning excuse me, sorry about that...singapore is juz squeeze out loh xD otherwise is juz scuse!=p n their escalator....is reali EVERYONE keep to the left...those on the right is 99% moving one=p wanted to take a pic of it la but in the end din =x....the food there is great too....

oh n one thing abt jap girls...is like from yng they knw how to make up one i tell u....those 10-12 yr old girls oso make up until very nice loh!n for the whole trip...dun reali see brands like giordano n stuff leh...onli see brands like gucci, tagheur, n other high class, never-hear-before brands xD....simply said, everything is expensive there lol....its like paragon everywhr=x...

first 2 days: went disneyland n disneysea!bought quite a number of stuff there n pics too...at least i think theres whr we took the most pics with us inside xD....

2008-03-10T23:18:00.002+08:00

yay im going japan tml!weee......k la this time when i come back i promise i will upload the pics into my blog xD...aiyz will miss all my.....GAMES!xD....aiya eh frens will always b there one mah hor?=p....going from 11th to 16th....back on 17th, so....yea no contact with anyone else for some time bah....some more there all in jap....like lost in translation sia xD....k la next update shld b when i come back....when i haf slept enuf.....n after im done with my unpacking xD.....till then my mates!!!we shall meet again!=p

2008-03-08T00:51:00.003+08:00

haiz.....not good sia not good....today most of the class oso not very satisfactory sia the results....mine is no exception.....my results:

Phy: C
Chem: D
Maths: B
GP: B
Econs: D
Chinese: B
PW: C

haiz....no As at all....sian....hope i can at least make it into something im interested in la....at least haf some interest in bah....disappointing man....

congratz to those who did well with all their As n Bs....hope u all can get into the courses of ur choice=)....me?....see got what choice left first la....

2008-03-02T18:40:00.002+08:00

yay watched leap years today!not bad quite romantic...enjoyed the quotes here n there la....went to watch with Min Wei....first time meeting after knowing her for like hella long lol...since like....lower sec sia...not bad had fun bah...so tired....she wake me up early at 11+am xD(thats early for me =p) then ask me go watch movie...half awake sia lol...n i was not grumpy loh!its juz morning voice more coarse mah....yawnz, so tired...my dad coming back from overseas oso today....duno going out for dinner anot...if hes not too tired then most probably bah...aiyz anyways even if not going out for dinner that Min Wei oso cant stay for long one....wah laoh 19 le still curfew until so strict...sianz la...n shes still excited abt her broadband lol...thats so funny la...got broadband onli then so happy...like caveman see fire liddat=p...gah tired....mayb later go catch some slp on the car if going out bah.....yawnzzz.....

2008-03-02T00:00:00.003+08:00

paiseh paiseh~!!!!internet down for the past week or 2....modem over-used apparrently....got old n dieded=p....sian la those days....juz bought my modem 2 days ago n it onli got ready yesterday...wah damn sian loh, went to suntec to buy come home my mum duno the internet password -__-....i fix everything, crack my head to figure out whats wrong then is onli the password she put com password...kaohz....oh well, anyways, went suntec, cant find the shop sia!me n jon walk arnd n arnd then can find xD....oh n saw ttc oso!long time no see him sia lol...but well he n us going diff directions so onli chat awhile then walk off le...finally found the shop, the sales person there not bad la...v frenly, tell us stuff slowly lol...finally got my modem then oso went to a nearby shop to modify psp FINALLY=p...been trying to mod it v long le but duno bring whr to mod....n jon got a psp too!1 more person to play multiplayer games with le lol xD....

today went to my cousin house play mahjong!not bad la won some money...at first play is abt break even i guess....then after break, 1st 5 rounds i won xD, then after that oso won some here n there...not bad overall still won abit^^ duno when can play again lol...at least easy to find kaki la...my cousin hse 2 blocks away nia=p

2008-02-10T15:46:00.000+08:00

ohhh....its chinese new year 4th day le...so far one day one of my cousin house....2nd day was mine la lol n for ytd n the 2nd day is all, mahjong!!!!hmmm....so far roughly break even nia...at my hse won a bit....ytd lost abit....overall mayb still lose abit la but is abt the same money nia...oh well i hope there lose de money is to "po cai" for my A lvl results^^....that means lose the money so that i can get better luck at my A lvl results loh=p

oh n this morning...wah damn lousy morning man....diarrhoea 4-5 times go to toilet...until juz now, eat lunch abit nia oso feel like going diarrhoea again-_-....aiyz stomach pain arh....duno eat what de....but confirm is coz food poisoning, coz is those kinda feeling of feeling like puking n lau sai at the same time....kaoh sia...hmmm this yr ang pow money still not bad la....ok le la compared to last yr...but u guys dun compare with me, i dun haf rich relatives ok?=p

haiz...recently still quarrelling sia they all...mum still keep on sayin that word....makes me so scared n heartbroken at the same time...dun let it happen plz....plz dun let it happen....i dun wanna lose this family=(

2008-02-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

Happy chinese new year!lunar new year liao...hope after this things, everything will get better!^^ guildmates stay as a guild=p, friends together forever=), family never apart=D, relationship get better n better everyday^^...zhi yao xing xing fu fu de guo zhe yi nian jiu hao le^^

2008-01-31T23:03:00.000+08:00

ytd went to dota n dinner with gh. bran n vince...wweee finally get to use techies....poor vince help me defend like siao hahaha....eh but techies fun leh...plant mine plant mine plant mine....plant remote mines ;) nxt time i go try more of techies=p...

today not that fun la...duno y juz feel pissed off at every small thing...ytd play until too much fun so muz compensate arh?lol...but reali la...play fiesta oso pissed at everyone...duno y juz pissed...i knw is small thing but still pissed lol....gahhh...temper temper....

2008-01-28T20:57:00.001+08:00

gahhhh....Fiesta server down today grrrr.....so sad....now so bored liao sianz lol...argh wheres my Fiesta!!!!haiz still long way from my lv 47 buff....=p at least with that i can buff ppl arnd when im bored....now onli poison n curse resistance buff nia lol ah well...

OH YEA!anyone want pineapple tarts?!lol...mom making, dun wry its not me makin so its edible=p ate alot of those which r kicked out after quality check=x see la i eat the defects ya knw=p lol...oh well, my stomach can take anything one la...alot of times eat alot of food not fully cooked....eat finish then realise lol oso bo tiaji....hmm onli milo in the morning bah...that one sure give me stomachache lol....milo in the morning without sufficient food is always equal to toilet for me=p

2008-01-26T15:05:00.000+08:00

aiyz long break from my blog again(actuali 5 days nia...quite short la lol) oh well, things r roughly still the same bah...oh n those who did well for your O lvls, good for you=) those who din do as well, try harder bah, this isnt the end yet=)....n spking of exams, mine oso coming out soon=x....for those who actuali read my blog, try not to ask me for my results la....if i do well i definitely will post....if u dun see anything here.....then.....hehe u shld knw la hor=p getting abit nervous abt results le....eh but one thing....ANYONE KNOW WHEN A LVL RESULT COMING OUT!?i ask some of my frens le, so far all duno hahahah....standard man...oh well...wish me luck=x

2008-01-21T01:56:00.000+08:00

well at least theres one thing i can feel better with alrdy=) now that i knw more abt the situation, at least i feel more at ease bah...at home, still quite bad bah...hopefully time can slowly make it well...

2008-01-16T00:37:00.000+08:00

y does no one wanna tell me whats going on...reali feel so useless...lol used to think im so good at solving stuff...now it shows how shit i m...fuck man....

2008-01-16T00:19:00.000+08:00

haiz when u get unlucky, reali everything comes together...things r reali going bad...everything arnd me...this is one unlucky start of a year haiz....nothing has been going right so far in everything...juz hope its juz a turning point for things to get better...cant imagine anymore worse for any of the bad things happening...

this time..is family...my mom finally broke out n left the hse...duno whr she went but she says shes in safe hands...juz got home from looking for her...sis crying, dad probably slping...n im feeling kinda exhausted from all that...guess it is harder for my mom...reali dowan this family to break up...seems like everyone is drifting apart....

2008-01-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

aiyz...woke up at 4++pm today lol...this time not bcoz of com playing la...juz that i too used to slping late, cant slp early one la...its like....2am?aiya night still yng la so early slp meh?lol....mum change password of com again coz i keep using=x....not i dun wana go find job la, but got dun haf commitment one tell me loh...if got commitment cannot la not i dun wan haiyoz...wah but these days reali slp damn long oso leh...like 12hrs is juz nice those kind lol...nvr used to slp so much one loh...sianz la....go out oso so ex, stay at home oso cant play com....sibei sian arh....

ytd went to vince funfair thing at westmall....aiyz they woke me up os early loh lol...if not they ask one i oso wun bother wake up go loh=p prev night onli slept like 3hrs?lol some more there not say v fun oso....ntg much de la all selling things for some charity thing bah...took pics by his fren's booth for some calender thing(which we din take back in the end...duno vince got take anot=x), bought from vince some thing like acrylic thingy one la...u paint n fill up the thing with colours which look awfully weird coz ppl always mix with lotsa diff weird colours one=p then put in oven come out like plastic liddat that one la...bran send me the pic liao then i post bah...so dumb la that one kids do one, then make me do oso sianz....lol...bo bian la, support vince mah=x then bran bought a shirt which vince donated lol...funny la he, $5 to buy back the shirt lol...ok la most of the time we were juz looking arnd, nuaing n beuing girls lol...saw someone who looks like yin mei=x....then got another girl i tot looked like kaihui oso...actuali her face juz looks familiar la cant reali rmb who she looks like lol...aiyz but in the end still din see the girl we 3 were waiting to see hor!aiyz wanted to see vince's taste now but cannot see leh...so late then come haiyoz...nvm la nxt time still got chance=p

2008-01-11T23:46:00.001+08:00

hehe sry for the multi posting today...aiya i juz post when i free mah so liddat de loh lol...

this time show u all v nice video one of my fave MVs=p love the song

Title of MV:kiss
touching MV of the couple...some more the girl oso quite cute lol...but reali nice music to listen to when feeling emo lol

Title of MV:Timeless
story of a guy who receives a heart transplant from the guy he killed n receives that guy's memories as well as feelings for that guy's gf=) the music is sweet=p

2008-01-11T22:57:00.000+08:00

called...she said call back in 10...but....there's still no reply up till now...haiz...reali miss her....plz b alright dear....

2008-01-11T22:02:00.000+08:00

aiyz fiesta server down!!!!damn....grrr y everything arnd me spoil here spoil there...com spoil, hp spoil, game spoil....anyways i oso cant play for long...ah well...haiz, suddenly think of her again...wonder how is she...for one to onli b able to hope n not do anything...its hard....

2008-01-11T03:03:00.000+08:00

aiyz past 2 days haf been helping out my father to move goods...1st day had my toes ran over by the moving cart(mind u, its WITH goods on, n the goods r hella heavy)...grrr but no broken bones la luckily, onli that time DAMN pain...short while, no harm=p lol...wah physique dropping liao die...

2008-01-09T01:17:00.000+08:00

haiyoz...now scanning com...been doing all those stuff jon tell me to do since like 10++pm...scan until now still havnt finish all the crap...kena trojan argh...thats the most irritating one...play game halfway come n shut down...until now i still duno whether i died anot...the worse thing is juz now scan halfway OSO shut down...bloody shit if shut down again later...when then can scan finish sia haiz....

2008-01-07T17:39:00.000+08:00

damn la i cant type in my own chat box-_-weird lol...aiyz today woke up at 4++pm hahaa...im slping too much man...this fact + me playing com all day.....IS MAKIN ME FAT!!!AAHHHH damn first time can feel fats at my tummy=x k la u all can say i look damn thin n stuff but still does not ignore the fact that there r fats on my tummy=p lol...grrr need to go gym!!!ok im lazy, what can i say=p

haiyaz someone so bad one loh, told her got black words to read then later still use my posts threaten me=p wan to die arh threaten ur gor=p need to find a way to fully disable highlighting sia lol

2008-01-05T22:59:00.000+08:00

haiyaz, someone complain my blog entry like essay....got meh?ok mah...aiya let the long essay compensate for the inconsistency la lol...

today, din do much except play com bah...Fiesta fiesta fiesta!lol...damnit its turning me fat grrr....anyone wanna go gym?lol still got 3 mths, shld b ok la hor=p...that eddie go commando without trainin...he wun die, i oso wun la lol...

haiz, coz of my mum, she put down the phone again...she lets any thing that i might haf to do bother her n give her the excuse that im busy n so reject talkin to me....this time, it wasnt even anything that i haf to do...this is killin me so much...dear...i miss u so much...

2008-01-04T20:54:00.000+08:00

ah, juz finish my dinner...been slping the whole day since i got home man lol...ytd din slp mah, went chalet n all=p at least this time chalet more ppl sia, though quite alot of ppl go liao then leave...guo hui went first day nia so sian...then brandon take second night nia...haiyoz like that all split up one sianz...anyways starting go with guohui, lena, eddie n me nia...the usual gang la lol...besides bran, vince, n gh, the most common ppl to see r eddie n lena liao coz most of the time is they organise outings one anyways...n our clique close to them mah...nxt most common wuld b yong sheng n andi i guess...yong sheng is chalet most of the time will see him...or if im not wrong is all the chalet outing oso got him arh lol...

ok, first day as usual, damn lil ppl...starting onli 4 of us went...n that was 4++pm when we reached the chalet-_-...then so sian some more...ended up playing cards all the way...but then me n gh dun wan play money, then lena nearly went crazy bcoz of that hahahaha....still say not gambling addict=p but heng din bet money loh, i kept losing leh-_-...get all those kinda stupid cards all the time..abt 3-4 of each suit, crappy pairs, get cards like 3,4,5,6 then no 7...uber lousy cards man...later yong sheng, guo neng, hugo, da hao, yiting n zhixin oso came but left later on...by then oso quite late le bah, but thats when the gambling began for them loh...then later is split into 2 grps liao, lena, yongsheng, eddie, hugo upstairs gambling, me, gh, gn, da hao downstairs play bridge...eh starting not bad leh, keep winning=p but later started losing abit liao lol...play play...play until abt 4-5++am bah...then i help gh read tarot cards for him...had a good nice talk with him oso;)long time din haf a nice long chat with my buddy liao lol...then chat chat, until slp le....

nxt day is when the much more ppl came la, though most oso so late then come-_-...aiya nvm la, anyways i oso woke up quite late lol...by then, guohui, hugo oso left le...guo neng left to kbox oso then came back later...andi, jennifer, hui xin, hwee yi, kian wee, brandon came later on(did i leave anyone out?=x)...then is mahjong for some of them n card games(where i lost $20+!!!damn....)then later at night started chattin abt memories again lol...nice to talk abt the past la, reali memorable times in pri sch...but its all but memories now=(...

talk talk talk until damn late...hwee yi went to slp early, while most of the rest of were downstairs talking(huixin oso slp initially but woke up to join us later, which later on guoneng took her place=p)...reach until abt 6-7am, topics start to run low, then ppl started gettin slpy liao lol...aiyz 1-2 hrs more nia mah...aiyz, in the end all slp arnd the mattress, stairs, chairs....except me n andi=p...then wait for the shop to open to return the mahjong table...after that, me, da hao, jennifer, kian wee, hwee yi n huixin took a ride on andi's bmw=D...damn squeezy haha...huixin, for the short ride to pasir ris park, was willing to sit on hwee yi on the front seat hahaha...we heng no police arnd nia lol otherwise andi licence take awhile nia, then kena demerit points liao=x...oh yea EZLINK CARD NOW ADULT PRICE!!!!!argh....cant go out often liao sia....no money=x

2008-01-01T23:13:00.000+08:00

yes finally done with my new blog background n music(thnx to jonathan, not a bad website there=p) feel free to comment, whoever comes to read=) lol....omg was looking for this song for so long on other websites la...most onli got the video code, no music code....damn la i want video code go youtube can liao mah, still need to go find until so xin ku meh=p

AHHH tml got chalet...nearly forget again if not for yong sheng's msg-_-...damn, now calling guohui, he asked abt chalet say wanna go one...

cheh he knw liao scare me....lol...aiyz sian la chalet i always the NIGHT b4 then rmb hahaha....nvm la i so free nowadays...wun clash with anything one la...

hmm...tml need to bring what....aiyz actuali oso no nid that much stuff la...we hardly slp, so hardly change clothes...most probably gona gamble most of the time for the others(im guai so i dun gamble=p lol)...well at least using mum's old phone now, so its not that fucked up like my hp is now(in fact its totally screwed that i cant even turn it on, so no point bringing it)...

oh gr8 everyone's gona see me black...onli few days din see become so black liao hahaha...skin gona peel soon some more...can feel my skin drying up on the surface....

hmm, still deciding on whether or not to disable selecting n highlighting of text...if i disable, then the black text totally cant see at all liao lol....oh well...anyways those r the emo entries=p, cant see oso nvm lol, type down to vent nia aiyz...k bah end here liao...need to go pack bag lo...

2008-01-01T03:04:00.000+08:00

been such a busy year....ok that n the fact that im totally lazy to update my blog that made this blog TOTALLY dead...wow last entry was like my bday?lol...lotsa things haf happened la since then...most major of course is A lvls bah(that is considering things that happened in MY life la, those which happened in others that affects me i shall not comment here=p).

okok since bran oso start blog then i revive this damn dead blog oso la lol...doubt anyone still reads this though haha...

sia la hols so far...sian la...some outings din go coz busy n stuff...then not much outings left oso...not much money to go out often anyways la...sian arh...I WANNA GO ICE SKATIN!

spking of which, eelin they all say will go ice skatin one...until now oso havnt leh then they starting sch liao leh!!!!damnit...and and and and...CLUBBING!argh....most of my close frens dun club...otherwise is cannot go out until too late so cannot go club...wah laoh eh 18 years old le mah...give more space leh lol...aiyaz girls always so kelian, even older liao oso kena restricted until liddat...clubbing n ice skatin is like my top places to go now...still haf until april to play la, but very lil ppl free liao mah by then...

okok stuff which i din reali update last time....ok im attached(90% of my frens shld knw by now la...if u duno, means most probably din talk to u for a long long time lol) my gf is like...damn far lol n things r.......well we r still together la thats all i can say lol...n will REMAIN together=p already 1 year+ liao, what can i say?=p longest relationship, shortest courtship lol...

other stuff not updated....shit im gettin fatter argh...ok u may think im thin n needs to gain weight, but still i dun wan a tummy lol...6 pack yes, 6-in-1 pack no...ahhh im so lazy to go to the gym...anyone wanna accompany?lol

currently, skin colour:brown....DARK brown...1 sentosa trip n i change race to a malay lol...wah im damn dark now leh...looks weird on me, this tan...n...its.....PAIN!....k la not THAT pain, but u understand la...keep takin the ice pack put untop then feel better lol...well at least i knw one thing...im not suitable for the role of tall, dark n handsome lol...dun haf any of those mentioned qualities=p im short, dark n not handsome haha

oh anyone reading this....play FIESTA!k la not that its reali super fun or damn special, but i wan more ppl to play same game as me hahaha...hmm so far, ppl who i knw r playin...jonathan(i pull him play one), brandon(the guy who ask me play one), vincent(bran n me pull to play one), guohui(not sure he started liao anot but he said he will)...the rest of the ppl on my fren list r ppl i got to knw from the game liao..nice ppl=p lol...damn i miss that party when we went to luminous stone 2 to dance lol...that was fun...moreover the party damn efficient!=) love that party man...

okok i want a camera!!!!i promise, after i get a camera ill START posting pics here lol...blog all words damn dull rite?bo bian la...handphone cant transfer....spking of which, MY HANDPHONE IS FUCKED!no not literally erhem....as in its spoilt...cant even turn it on...using my mom's old phone now...but main prob is all the pics, songs......n of course my msgs=(...all the memories...haiz nvm la...if cannot fix oso bo bian...

k la not say gettin tired or what...but i SHLD slp by now lol...otherwise my mum is gona put a ban for 1 week on the com-_-...oh what will i do without my com, oh what will i do=p...shall update nxt time...

2007-04-28T01:28:00.000+08:00

super long since i updated yea?lol..guess no one comes liao...haiz...o well, if i update at these times means no good things la now...i seriously think my parents haf great sense of timing loh...they always knw how to TOTALLY spoil the day...today, as in 28 april today....she oso cnt come le...tts bad enuf la...actuali thats already very bad for me...haiz, was reali hoping to spend the whole day with her one...its not her fault oso la, she oso bo bian...what can i say, fate is reali making a fool of us...then after yesterday 11.55pm talk until 12++, so she can b the first to wish me happy bday...though with her halfaslp tone, it was reali sweet la=)...then came all my fren's wishes...felt quite nice liao...then my dad had to come...haiz, my mum HAD to tell him now...then he come talk to me...start telling me stuff n more n more stuff...seriously, with my mood, nothing is gona get in...i reali duno la...the more bad timings they encounter with me, the more im starting to rebel against their way of thinking...yes im becoming a rebel...in my mind im already fighting it...keeping it from coming out...but slowly its taking over...seems like its gona get worse....knw what?i felt like saying,"hey guess what?today my birthday u knw?omg is that surprising?"lol....funny yea?.....as for celebration?duno la...i used to think that i might haf a big party for my 18th birthday...now?duno la...im not even in the mood for celebration....Happy birthday to me la...

2007-02-06T22:29:00.000+08:00

know wat?im juz useless...i totally duno how to care for ppl...i cant even make her feel better, how fucking useless...i use to think i was good in stuff...some stuff at least...i knw now im reali useless...haha is this even significant?everywhr theres problems now...why muz these always happen together...im reali fucking stupid...y m i here anyways....

2007-01-23T19:21:00.000+08:00

aiyz sianz today tio maths teacher say liao...wat else?my hmwrk din do la...haiz then still called up my mum for the meeting stuff...another time of talking...it aint bad la...but guess im gettin more n more introvert...wat to do...in this kind of world u juz cant show ur true self unless u r what they perceive as 'good'...well lets face it la...its reality...the fittest survive...but im kinda tired of fighting la...i rather juz help ppl go ahead...if not for the fact that im the onli son in the family, n as a guy i will NEED to support the family whether im getting married or not...i enjoy frenly competition...but in the real world it aint frenly...ppl will step on u to get up higher...presently there aint so much backstabbing as in the wrking world coz there aint that many chances...in the real world its all abt that...be too kind n ppl will juz kik u aside...theres too many things that i juz cant say...not to anyone...or probably i juz dun wanna say it...i dun like being weak...but i knw i m...avg aint enuf...coz avg is gona get u no whr...

2007-01-01T10:23:00.000+08:00

ah its a new year already...2007!hmm lotsa stuff haf happened in 2006...new school, new class, new frens, new......hehe yep 2006 has been a long year to pass n we haf all been thru lots in 2006...but now its time to plan for the future in 2007!actuali not v happy that its 2007 alrdy la...y?obviously coz of A LEVELS!!!!wahhhh the frightful scene argh...this time is reali haf to DO WELL before i can get into the course i want...n this reali affects the future yea?haiz hate to say this but i reali haf to study='( omg STUDY LEH...geez dun u juz hate that word lol....well other than good results, there r still some other stuff i oso hope for la...hope all my frens do well in exams n those who i duno, especially those who r taking A lvls nxt yr as well, do badly so i can haf a higher chance of gettin an A =p lol...well thats how the sytem goes wat haha jk la though...well for 2007 i tink besides studies n some 'other stuff' i dun haf much plans for the year le la...hope theres more tears of joy n happiness in 2007!n HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2006-12-21T01:38:00.000+08:00

second day of wrk...arison go the outdoor one loh then discard me=p haha jk la...but anyways he was kind enuf to send his fren to come...eh y do u consider a deuter bag blue, when the onli blue part is the little parts at the sides?=x...haiyoz...then couldnt find him until he msged me la lol...wah then went to wrk liao....kaoh the queue so long sia....argh...in the end we reach, late le so we juz cheong to the meeting place without our dinner='(....can u imagine?waiter dun eat dinner...so sian la, haf to serve those nice dishes...then cannot eat...aaahhh...argh...o well i endured thru lol...then today they onli asked for those 1st timers...so i 2nd timer din tell them...then they assign me 2 tables0.O.....wahaha i was tinking...wah die la die la, better not 4get anything...then i keep repeating in my brain wat to do...wah so nervous la lol...but then later when i go get some stuff that time luckily the other guy i chatted with help me tell one of the team leader that i 2nd timer onli n got 2 tables...so in the end i got another guy to help me oso...haha 2 on 2 tables again...wah duno y today got more tired leh...my backache abit halfway lol...o yea today got this gal beside me first timer, drink server...startin not long onli hor then she say leg pain liao...then for quite some time she juz stand there loh...after awhile i ask if she need help anot...then i went to ask the team leader who helped me abt her problem loh...then that guy helped her to the back to rest...n she rest until the thing end...eh actuali quite cool loh...u get paid for sitting down at the back lol...k la dun so bad=p...found out that coz her heels too high then her toes squeeze at the end then blood clot=x...well after the thing ended, me n my fren wanted to help her to the signing out...then the other team leader guy say cannot, later guests c le not nice...wtf la like that oso cannot...then we waited for awhile then she go wear her shoes again then we at her sides look after...ah then finally signed out...gg off, then we realise...4got to take bags!argh...sian lol got back up then take our bags...well that signs the end of today loh, man it feels so nice on the chair...ahhhh...lol

2006-12-19T04:37:00.000+08:00

ooo ytd first day of wrk...wrk until 1+am then reach home sia...but im awaks NOW, when its 4+am..y?secret lol...still damn shag sia...legs aching arh...not used to standing arnd so long=x...wrked for 5.5hrs as arison calculates....ok la not bad...o yea juz nice got on the last train back home...then my father went to fetch me from je there....haiz tired loh...wah but today v screwed sia...going out that time then rmb need black leather shoe...CANNOT FIND...call here call there, in the end borrowed shoes from merrill...so...finaly i left the house tinking most of the things done le...ooo i chase after the bus somemore...board the bus..whrs my wallet???sian...go back down, walk back 2 bus stops...aiyaz...so late le...then reach there still wait for merrill pass me his shoe...k la its my fault la sry la k merrill bro...lol...then finally made it there...wah haiyoz the place so luan...how to get used to it?i reali duno lol...aiyaz o well...wednesday going myself anyways...omfg im soooo going to b dead lost lol...

2006-12-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

more than 2 weeks didnt update liao haha..n oso didnt go out for v long le lol...today not bad la went to the dinner n dance at singapore poly...ok for us was rather dinner ONLI coz the dance part we juz left lol...wah the emcee is SSSOOOO GAY!!!!!the moment he started talking we all laugh la lol...his english so guailan some more want to act high...he act until ownself high onli la we all is feel like bashin him up high nia...kaohz cant even let me eat my dinner nicely lol...haiz abit disappointing oso la...chio bu so little=p hahaha...got more guys than gals there sia...wah then the dance start that time, got one couple go in the middle first...getting hot there sia=p haha...but actuali the gal oso not say v chio la so at least i wun jealous=p hahah...anyways after we sneaked out...or rather walked out lol, we went to je there go play pool loh...sian la i damn good at shooting goals....two balls, i shoot middle lol...then give away free ball...sian i tink i nid to go check eyes liao lol...aiya but at least the matches after that i got more accurate la...started to actuali HIT the damn ball...lol...ah shit juz rmb...we din take a grp photo!!!!argh...sianz la...haiz o well we muz at least go out again this holiday!!!!dun care liao muz haf at least one grp photos of our 6AC ppl!!!!=p

2006-12-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

its a nice starry night tonight...rare sight especially for singapore...v clear sky with onli 1 line of cloud...wat a beautiful night, but sadly, doubt there wuld b many who can appreciate such beauty...as of this yr i realise the beauty of the night...the silence, the peace...when was the last time u actuali listened to the silence...when was the last time u actuali put off all thoughts n listen...in our busy world we usually do not haf time for tt...even if we did, most of us probably couldnt b bothered to do tt...but its actuali v relaxin to juz stop thinking of any other things n juz relax in the silence...tts y alot of gals go for facial treatments n stuff...coz they got provide those relaxing sounds in the background which make ur whole body n mind relax...tts wat many ppl lack...we all get busy over everything, tt we 4got to relax...n i dun consider watching tv n playing games a form of relaxation here=p...tt still wrks ur mind up...the onli time ppl nowadays relax is when they r slping...so if ur those who dun slp much + dun let ur mind rest while ur awake(which i doubt most of u guys will do)...plz spend some time to do so=)...o yea it cools u down too coz i almost had another quarrel with my mum but now im much more chilled=)

2006-11-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

now o2jam become my chat rm liao sia lol...these days kip goin there to chat with other ppl=p...hmm made a couple of new frens...from 12 yrs old to 20+++ lol...its much more fun when u haf frens to play with la...no frens v sian sia...aiya but most of them live in malaysia sia...at least some got car lol...got car then can come meet us someday=p...eh tts wat they say one wat not me leh=p...argh i still wana go ice skating...sian...my sis today go ice skating loh...remind me of it again...argh...eh who goin ice skatin MUZ JIO ME GO HOR!

2006-11-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

wah been one wk since i blogged sia...aiyz up till now, still havnt start wrk lol...anyways, today juz went out with primary school classmates=) finally go out le haiz...at home so bored...then some game eddie intro...until now still 30% nia sianz...anyways...today wanted to go play badminton...then 1 side court close, the other side they wanted to clean up the place...haiz...this kinda things always happens when i organise...geez...then actuali still got bball...but it RAINED!!!argh...the world is against me=p haiyaz wat to do, no one else want to organise=x...n somemore everyone ALWAYS i stress ALWAYS late one...100% confirm got ppl late...n is not 5,10 mins u knw?is 30 mins, 1hr like tt-_-...o yea brandon got tanner n more muscular le sia...shuai ge le yea?lol...any gals interested?=) haha so anyways we managed to play badminton abt 15mins b4 they started to clean up the place...then big rain, wat to do?go tbp walk walk...then go eat lunch...then chit chat loh...chatting is nice la but dun think they want to sit n chat the whole day la hor=p...later decided to play bball since the rain subsided...but it came back later=p but by then we alrdy rather wet by bouncing the ball on the puddles alot of times le...so WHO CARES lol...argh my shooting REALI sux...n not as if i v gd at dribbling...SO overall i suck at bball lol...haiz then after tt went to meet the others who din wan to play bball...then they leaving liao...sianz...coz anyways oso duno wat to do liao la...the movies tt r nice r abit late...so went home le...argh dun care, wednesday is goin to b better!=p

2006-11-21T20:27:00.000+08:00

wah sian la today skipped breakfast n lunch-_-...coz woke up at arnd 11...then play com le then later rush to bentink intro the job thingy...wah how i knw they tok so long sia but at least got someone else oso pei me din eat breakfast n lunch lol...made 2 new frens there, ying tao n bai tong...not bad la got quite alot to tok to...wah eh actuali the job hor, din knw its tt big an event loh...they is organise those wedding, meetings, n stuff like tt one...then 24hrs oso got wrk to do sia, so can wrk until late past midnight oso can=x...n the pay not bad oso, $6/hr on normal days...$7 for PH n after 6pm during PH eve...then got some of those wedding if the customer give more or something, can rise up to $8/hr...looking forward for tt to happen lol...some more provide food n transport if wrk until past public transport timings....not bad not bad...i tink i wan to wrk until quite late loh if can...but nid book timing, v troublesome la...argh i scared their plate too heavy oso loh but the beverage server onli for gals=p haha...o yea alot of ppl went to apply leh...so duno got chance can go wrk anot leh...o n met zhen shun(cant rmb how to spell his name)...so qiao loh since p sch din c him le leh!lol...he still recognize me not bad lol...

2006-11-15T21:00:00.000+08:00

wah today met some BLOODY FAGGOTS...fucking malays!(no offence to other malays, i juz mean them=p)...went playing bball with my cousins n my sis...then got these bunch of pri sch ppl playing soccer there...well its a bball court wat, they wana play go other place play la...we din tell them tt la, juz played on w/o caring them...then later they kip on ramming balls like fuck like tt...esp tt fuckin fat guy man...pri sch kid still come n tok cock with me...bloody fags...ram until my cousin sia...then her lips bleed...shit them la go other place n play la fuckers...then he still say she show temper...wtf he big arh...asshole...if not for those older ppl behind i sure make him 'ball'less...his frens some still ok la...is tt fuckin asshole...FUCK HIM TO HELL...may his balls drop down or get eaten inside out...slice his balls in 2 n pour sulfur on them...then pour oil in his dick n burn it inside out...i knw im a sadist thnk u=p...wana knw more sick ways of dyin ask me=p...o well enuf of tokin fuck abt fuckers...

Tuesday: early morning wake up tio stomachache...sian la...then tot its abit nia so still went sch...on the way got MUCH worse...wah laoh pain like shit...walkin to sch tt part was the WORST...argh...had to push myself...walk faster walk faster reaching reaching....then rush to the toilet then AAAHHhhhhh.....shuang...lol...then touch rug practice start...argh after so long din practise...now abit lousy liao haha...stamina especially...was nvr tt gd...now become worse...die la die...haha then rs v pro loh...BBD results still go pei fren go for the remedial classes...if were me i then lazy to go sia...lol then after touch rug end we went to play for awhile...then saw classmates walking out..ah juz nice can go home tgt...so we went to eat...haha eating tt part quite funny...zengliang say wan to go eat at pizza hut coz got chio bu=p haha...initially we dun wan one, wanted to go pastamania but there tt time no students offer...so we ended up in pizza hut still...hmm actuali the gal IS quite chio la...haha then we keep pushing zengliang to order from the waitress...got some others oso quite chio=p...actuali more of cute la...hahaha...so after our nice lunch accompanied by the nice view, we all went home...me went home slack arnd, watch tv...then went sung hun hse for bbq!
the bbq was nice...eh i part of the fire starter grp ok...although i not tt gd at it la but i helped!lol...unlike those who onli slack!bleahz...aiya sadly my dear gay partner merrill haf to leave right after we set up the fire=( o well still took a lovely pic b4 he left=P

argh shld haf left my hand at his waist!NOOOO...now dun look tt gay le haiz haha
o yea we oso tried to do some jumping-in-mid-air shot...
our first shot...wierdly only the this pic got blurred duno y...argh all bcoz merrill din lift up his legs fast enuf we haf to take again...lol
AAAHHH...sung totally covered my face man...can onli c my hands lol

our last n final shot...FINALLY haha...btw if u notice, by the time we made our last shot, it was dark...when in the first shot is was still quite bright=x haha

o the bbq was not bad...but no one wanted to try the crabsticks without bbqing them first=( wah laoh y no one believe can eat one...i ate like damn lot uncooked ones la lol...the imitation crabstick reali can eat without bbqing first de loh...ah but i dun like eating too much bbq food...makes me feel sick bleagh...also alot of photographs taken in b/w but havnt received them=(...aiyz mayb when receive then post up loh lol...then later tt night, after those who not planning to stay over left,....still got tokin session sia...hmm quite sad oso la listen to them tok abt our impending seperations n all...but no matter wat, we will b seperated sooner or later...more imptly is tt we will always rmb each other in our hearts=) then later we went back to sung's hse...played winning eleven...sian la wah laoh i duno how to play one they still all there keep laughin at me...first timer wat...idiots=p...argh lost 5-0 to sj...fine loh lol...argh hate losing...then sian liao, so went to the rm..tabby was msning then i juz chat chat abit then went to hibernation mode, zzzZZZZZ...

Wednesday: first one to slp, first one to wake up haha...k la mayb not first la coz went out tt time saw shawn neo sitting in his rm...lol tio stuck...the others slping in front then he cannot come out haha...then i juz went to toilet wash up abit n went to the living rm...after awhile jia wei oso woke up then shawn neo can come out lol...slowly one by one they all woke up la...then we started playing ps2 but now is smackdown...at least this i can play more decently haha...then ppl got bored so they went back to winning eleven...this time i dun wan to play liao haha...kip gettin thrashed not fun la eh=p...so after tt some went to k box while the others went home, me included...went to jp with shawn tien to eat lunch...ate mac...argh ate too much, damn filling so full sia by the time i eat finish lol...ordered 1 fillet meal upsized, 1 fillet burger n 1 mcflurry...woots my full meal...actuali not tt i cannot finish one is juz tt coz shawn's meal smaller so i ate faster...ull get damn full to finish so much in a short amt of time man...anyways eat finish le went home for awhile then went play bball with my cousins n sis le...then refer back to first para=p

2006-11-13T01:59:00.000+08:00

yawnz...been rotting at home sia lately...hmm anyways bentink got job lobang duno how isit though still havnt called me argh...nvm la tml then call him haha...haiz juz finished making a calendar for my mum sianz...shengwei got his new blog lol write first entry write so long=x...aiya at least he made me rmb tt i havnt added alot of ppl in my class...haha yea la now added le...ah going to some place to b waiter...first time doin a job sia lol...argh but bo bian la...nid money=p haha...first i nid to buy my mp3 n then oso nid to save up for tt party me n my sis is gona organise nxt yr...no its not for u guys=p haha for my mum n dad wedding anniversary...doubt they will celebrate it since the past yrs oso didnt celebrate de=p...so we decided to make one major one for them muahaha...but estimated cost gona b hell...so better save up...argh...so heartpain sia seperate from my money...lol but o well, it will be a great event to b remembered for a long time for the whole family=)yayness haha...

2006-11-10T20:38:00.000+08:00

recently i found out something very bad happening to me...im starting to lose interest in alot of things...n the worst part is...my games i play until bored leh!!!miraculous rite?omg nvr knew this day wuld come...o yea but one thing i still enjoy is watchin shows...movies, animes and stuff...the only problem is how to find so many shows to watch...no money la=x...sian im gettin more n more sian by the day...n i cant go out too often oso coz i dun wana waste money-_-...argh muz find some things to do b4 i go mad...hmm mayb i shall rollerblade all the way to orchard...sianz list of the games i haf dl n played before:Knight online, RAN online, DO online, survival project, maplestory, runescape, tibia, dota, shuihu online, raycrash, anarchy online, gunbound, o2jam, auditions online, feeding frenzy, drug wars, little fighter 2...cant tink if there r any others at the moment...o yea Eudemons online...looks quite fun but it was a american server n on my com, it lagged so much i culdnt do a shit-_-...lets c bleach i c until latest le(102)...juz finished my recently bought anime series...hmm shld juz go out do sports everyday...rollerblading, basketball, badminton, pool,...oh anyone for iceskatin!?reali miss it man...argh...but none of my close frens go ice skating...so sian AAHHH....sian...I WANT TO GO OUT!!!!im so bored...

2006-11-08T19:17:00.000+08:00

argh today bad day...damn pissed by 2 ppl...early in the morning make me wake up then go sch liao...say meet at 9am...2 CLASSES waiting for him...he came at wat time?10!...n not even a word of apology...wtf man...as a teacher, HOD some more....late for a timing he made himself...n didnt even tell us tt he will b late or wat...wah laoh bad model for students loh=p...then first thing in class scold us liao...ok la tt was our fault la, but was so pissed abt him being late, tt it juz made me more pissed...'piss off' needs cooldown period=p...he makes it seems like our time is worthless loh...waste oso nvm...damnit i wan my slp u knw!!!=p...argh...the 2nd matter...haiyaz dun wana tok abt tt liao...btw theres no such thing as stoning for me...its either im slping, or im thinking...if tts considered stoning, then ok loh haha...hmm when u keep quiet n dun tok for sometime, u cool down faster...n start to realise different stuff...especially when u r damn pissed off or emo...quieting down helps u look at the situation as a third party...understand y urself n the other person is acting in such a way...helps to manage future scenarios better...seriously self-reflection helps, especially when u get older...ironically it is when ppl get older that they start to self reflect lesser...coz normally when we r young, we r often forced to reflect...now?hardly...observin things n people around oso...actuali thru observations is the best way to learn n understand...sometimes u can understand more of urself thru tt...tts y i like the quiet nights...can consolidate ur thoughts=)