.Tuesday, October 31, 2006 ' 12:24 AM Y
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haiz today...or rather ytd's presentation sia...sux like shit...practise so many times still nervous...then keep stammering sia damnit...wah laoh i juz cant change loh...argh my stage fright is reali gr8 loh i cant spk in front of a crowd, esp w/o movin much...ill stiffen up one=x...haiz stupid la...well cut my hair on sunday FINALLY lol...ahhh my behind cut until short short liao...even my fringe oso cut above eyebrow le haiyoz...o well anyways i asked the barber to cut JUZ NICE above can liao...then hols can let it grow all the way muahaha...side i dun care la long oso not nice haha...cut even better loh...but got ppl say i look younger-_- erm tt aint gd rite?haha...wah laoh like tt how to jio gals!muz haf more mature look mah haiyoz=p...anyways finished on my spker notes liao...still practising though...coz still cant get it right!argh...im like sooo gona fail my op=x...
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.Thursday, October 26, 2006 ' 12:03 AM Y
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sianz another day in sch, today had diarrhoea the whole morning when i was at home...n ytd abit oso...wah the shit is reali 90% water one la...wtf loh muz b the east coast food since merrill oso say he had stomachache...nxt time dun go there eat liao=p...then i always say i sick hor, no one believe me one leh, y arh?aiya i tink the class juz dun believe anyone will get sick ever=p haha...anyone who is sick(esp applying to guys) at home with mc = ponning sch...lol its like tt all yr round...o yea today saw the results of our class photos...not bad la most of us the pic was taken well, except for shermaine...n terri who didnt take with us la...shermaine one oso duno wat happen sia haha dun look like her de...haiz tml haf to go sch for pw n chi again...o well another day to waste in sch=x o n now cannot pon bcoz of haze liao coz it seems tt the haze is gettin much much better!muz b due the the rain these few days...finally loh...haiz reali la singapore shld juz build a windmill blow the haze back to indonesia...ok lame nvm lol...haiz i can feel it drifting again...it seems like the older u get the more problems u get from both outside n inside...gradually losing another person i can trust...im no longer sure of who i can share my problems with alrdy...theres juz somethings...no one will understand...i suddenly feel v alone again, as i watch the nite sky...probably im juz unwilling to accept others at times...im afraid...im juz afraid to move forward...as u knw more, u start to fear more...somethings i rather not knw...n somethings i wonder if ill ever knw...
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.Tuesday, October 24, 2006 ' 3:29 AM Y
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nowadays lazy to update daily liao=p haha so a few days then update once la paiseh=)...ok lets start from friday...friday had to go sch coz of stupid pw....woke up early in the morning, washed up,changed n all...then fell aslp on my sofa!BUAHAHA....man im becoming such a pig...but anyways, later my mum woke me up n ask me go slp in the rm since its alrdy damn late=p...then anyways, when i woke up, my hp juz nice rang...the world is juz full of coincidences seriously=x...anyways, shawn tien start telling me come to sch NOW...haha he made it seem like the teacher damn fierce la, but when i reach sch she seemed ok wat=p...aiya but i wasnt the onli one who didnt go anyways, still got shengwei, zhilun, tabitha,....np la lol...but teacher warned liao, cannot anyhow pon w/o mc...sian la i hate gettin mc loh...argh juz haf to go sch i guess...o well at least still got break until tues=p...hmm saturday cant reali rmb wat i did sia...but i tink the whole day was spent at home with the com le...lol,another one of those days wasted on computer=x...then comes sunday...o yea after much persuasion, i went with merrill to his church organised activity again at east coast park...always at east one la idiots...sian la sit train alone all the way from jurong...kaohz some more my hp low batt then still had to off it to save batt=x...cnt even msg anyone-_-...but tts not the worst...the worst is he pangseh me AGAIN!idiot...always like tt one...hmm, doubt he will read this so i shall continue=p haha...ok la the grp i was sent to still ok for me la...its like almost all the ppl i knw in his church grp le loh lol...arison, of course knw him...bryan n yvonne from prev time...n claudia, wollace's sis who i got to knw on the way there=p...so basically i knw the whole team la...ah cycling was fun n bryan keep on cycling so fast tt i had to catch up...cnt lose to the other gals n the dual bike=p...then i ended up cheonging, restin, cheongin, restin...wah thigh muscles tired sia though the next day all ok liao la=p...then by the time we ended, it was alrdy late liao loh...then we went eat dinner...no appetite, so ended up eating chendol n drinking grass jelly onli...ah yea arh...come to tink abt it...i forgot to eat dinner even after goin home sia...geez, slipped off my mind lol...argh no wonder i cant gain weight...keep forgettin to eat...mind u this doesnt exactly happen once or twice onli=p haha...k la end of the day can say made 2 more frens...wollace n claudia + refreshing my memory on who is grace n ginny...4got their names la haha...bryan n yvonne can say is half 4get la lol...ok monday alrdy...latest updates...woke up at 6am coz i 4got to off the alarm-_-...sian la always like tt one...tts wat happen when u put recurrent alarms...anyways my sis didnt slp the whole nite la i realised, then my mum oso haiya since she didnt slp, then ask her not to go sch liao(anyways my sis oso dun wan=p, was complaining somemore tt i didnt nid to go sch y she nid=x)...so ended up all went back to slp again...2nd waking time:12+, was made to go bathe immediately as we goin vivo city to watch movie...argh i nid to cut my hair man...long stubborn hair + no more wax...argh bad hair day man...mainly the sides la...irritating...anyways we went vivo city n shop arnd first as our show was at 4.15....haiyoz early say, then i slp more liao=x haha...saw weiting with pamela they all sia...then msg him oso din reply...tink muz b change hp no liao loh...stupid junior, change no oso din say sia...find one day go scold him liao=p...hmm...shop shop shop...din buy anything haha...sian la waste time...o ya guys, u wan to go vivo city rmb to bring tissue paper...the guys toilet there run out of toilet paper one...guys shit more lol...anyways safer la ownself bring...hmm n the 'scenery' there oso not bad=p haha aiya but then again shld b expected from any big shopping centre mah i suppose=x...then we went to watch our Rob-B-Hood...it was hilarious lol...laughed at alot of parts but cnt rmb which parts liao=x...aiya nice can liao la haha...first time c jackie chan b bad guy...as in normally he is police mah, now he thief...some more initially is hopeless gambler oso...o n another v nice part of the show...CHARLENE CHOI!yay any show is nice with a chio bu inside it lol...man she looks cute in tt show haah...haiz but monday oso found out tt my sis is doin it again...can c la...the freshly healed wounds...tot she promised not to do it again le...haiz wat can i do to make her change...wat probs does she haf tt she muz resort to tt again...i reali dun wan to c her hurting herself again loh...i dun wan anyone close to me to get hurt...n slowly, i feel im hurting more inside as well...but who can i confide in?sometimes i reali wonder...
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.Wednesday, October 18, 2006 ' 4:53 PM Y
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yes yes, i realise this is not updated again...haiz bo bian oso la, since sunday haf been cheongin pw...since then my slping hours become arnd 2-3am...n the nxt day still got sch la!anyways ytd cheong finish summarizing the WR liao, squeezing 4k++ words to 3199=x...eh it aint an easy job man...i duno read thru the wr how many bloody times liao...from 10+ till 3+ plainly reading n compressing the wr=x...SO...i decided tt today i shld rest...take leave=p haha...though i didnt reali slp much more oso la coz 10+, jj asked me, on the behalf of ms leong, to send her the reading portfolio stuff...aiya but nvm la, at least i still haf abt 6-7 hrs of slp...its considered long for this wk liao=S...ah at least wr is gone liao, the worst part of pw over...now left OP n I&R...not say little wrk oso la, but at least not as tedious as wr=x...ah juz ate finish my lunch, macdonalds...lol yea this is my lunchtime when i start to use the com at hm w/o anyone to remind me of the time=p
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.Saturday, October 14, 2006 ' 1:09 AM Y
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ah stayed up another night to do pw again...today is wr...wah my intro is reali crap la haiz...always kena rej some more is the whole thing loh...now last one liao, hopefully can make it thru la=x...o yea n played dota juz now with yiting!lol at least she arnd my standard(noob=p) so i wun get thrashed...i won la in the end but it wasnt w/o quite a few deaths loh=x sianz nid to practise more sia lol...my clicking reali sux...ok exam updates until now: shld b able to promote le la considering i haf 2 h2 n 1 h1 pass le...though quite sad tt some of my good frens r retaining:'( haiz reali wish to haf the whole class to promote tgt loh...then tt day i knw my chem pass still got quarrels sia, haiyoz like tt hor, even though i knw i got high chance of promotion tt day, oso was not v happy loh...n my passes werent v gd either, n considering i didnt hand in many assignments and my summer test was in a mess, even if i promote, i will haf alot of wrk ahead of me=x anyways here r my results so far:Chem: 37.5/70 + 15/30 = 52.5/100...can pass is gd la, but when u c ppl can get As, this is reali nthin much to celebrate loh...but im glad i pass la...o yea n i realise i made a REALI DUMB MISTAKE!i missed out qn 27 in the OAS then shaded wrongly!lost 2 marks bcoz of tt la!!!shit man...nxt time muz open my eyes BIG then c carefully sia lolPhy: 58.5/100 might seem like quite gd compared to summer test la, but phy was suppose to be my best subject so this isnt reali tt big of a joy as well...n yea la ill try to hand in my assignments nxt yr=pMaths: 41/100...o man mr kumar is like SOOO gona kill me...ok i gave up my maths to study chem so its kinda expected tt this result will come out...but i dun wan to c mr kumar liao sia...later sure tio one=x haiyoz sianz....nid to listen to him lecturing again=x hahaChinese: 77/100 + 38/60 = 71.875/100 this is my best news la n it reali came as a surprise loh...ask any of my sec sch or pri sch frens n ull knw my chi was NVR good lol...yea la n for this i got suaned until now la...others nvr seemed to get suaned for gettin highest in the other subjs leh...y me!=pGP and econs: not yet revealed so cant reali say much la...this kind of essay writing examinations u can nvr b too sure one...later careless, out of pt then fail liao...so for now juz can hope for the best la!
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.Wednesday, October 11, 2006 ' 9:58 PM Y
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OMFG OMFG OMFG...i got 75 for chinese paper 2 sia!rofl....at first show me 62 is alrdy not bad liao loh...then calculated....eh?count wrong 10 marks...LOL...wah then A liao leh...i damn happy liao...then later still say got qn give too lil marks...then +3 more!woots!haha...so happy sia...but physics wasnt tt gd la...56+2...+2 coz 1 multiple choice qn they give wrong so everyone +2 marks...58...my mid yr got U leh...duno can pull up the marks anot...HAF to pass leh...coz my maths confirm fail liao...so now waiting for friday!...CHEMISTRY MUZ PASS!!!keep pestering ms ang she oso dun wan to tell me..so sad man...unlike tt stupid shengwei la...phy pass, so he like confirm can promote liao loh...chem sure pass one mah him..chem pro lol..o yea mr ang wrote in my test paper:'plz hand in ur assignments, u can do better'...lol o well as usual...for those who knw me b4...HEY this proves i havnt changed a bit man!lol reali hope i pass chem reali hope i pass chem reali hope i pass chem...
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.Friday, October 06, 2006 ' 10:08 PM Y
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woots got my warcraft 3 ORIGINAL today...no nid use fako pirated cd liao!lol...can return zijie liao...haiz but i still damn noob leh no pt loh...anyways cnt reali play much la, still got pw to do...argh TO HELL WITH PW!pw sux to the core man...after exams suppose to ENJOY!but we r all stuck with pw...like wth...argh...actuali i dun wan to care abt it liao loh...but bo bian la, dun later pull everyone else down lol...
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. ' 12:36 AM Y
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cant slp, so came n blog...anyways oso havnt reali update, n its time for me to change skin rite?=) wah later(cant say tml coz its alrdy past 12=x) still haf to go sch, damn sian...4 hrs leh!n its PW!wth...so dumb la aiya heck la juz go la...haiz, too many qns goin thru my mind now...i oso duno how to ans...i ask u la, who r u?...dun tell me ur name n all...ur not juz a name, ur not an item...u haf thoughts, feelings,character, so who r u?...if u can ans tt, then tell me this...who m i?at times i dun even understand myself...today i was standin at the open window juz staring at the outside, so my mum asked me wats wrong...actuali, i oso duno wats wrong...probably its juz tt i enjoy the night sky...the peaceful n silent night...so calm, so quiet...its nice to haf tt feeling once in a while...tts y i like the night...its quiet, allows me to gather my thoughts n calms me down...but reali, m i troubled?i duno wat im troubled with even if i m, but at times i reali tink too much that i trouble myself over small matters that may not even be of my own...as i grow older, i start to tink more deeply...which has probably made wats outside of me differ more to wats inside...dun ask me to stop tinkin coz i cnt...whenever im not doin anything physically, ill b tinkin of things...i guess many ppl see me as happy-go-lucky, but i beg to differ...i juz keep things to myself...i dun wan to trouble ppl abt my problems, n i start to feel more like this recently...kinda ironic, especially when i ask ppl to share their problems with me...i luv to listen to others, to b glad tt they trust me with their problems, but i juz cant bring myself to do so...theres juz too many secrets to keep, too many people i dun wan to hurt n too many problems i wan to solve...
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.Wednesday, October 04, 2006 ' 3:02 PM Y
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ah...finally exams r over!did we go out to play straight after tt?noooooo.....we went back home n did our EoM...-_- stupid la...anyways i got back my draft 2 today...woots second draft n its HME...i took like a minute to amend it?coz the onli comments he left there were to amend my sentence structure-_-...well at least i still can play when i reach home...haiya later still haf to go back sch pass it up...sianz feel like slping more like it...hmm...received news of goin out liao...goin dota again!haha...soo typical outing of my class..everytime go out play dota one...but o well...WHOS COMPLAINING?lol...plz note this is NOT complaining=p
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.Tuesday, October 03, 2006 ' 5:01 PM Y
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chem today was not bad...at least the night before wasnt wasted man!at least saved 10 marks for the linking one...o yea still cant believe one of the structures we were suppose to draw was WATER n CARBON DIOXIDE!lol...give away marks one=p stylo lah they all...a subtance that boils at 100 degree C n freezes at 0 degree C...lol...an inorganic compound that produces white ppt with calcium hydroxide=p....best paper i had so far....FINALLY theres hope to promote...as long as tml physics make it thru then all is settled!...muz thank my sis sia, stay up with me to test me=) haha...needed it man or else today i wuld haf dieded in more than one way=x...anyways still not confirm promote yet...c tmr bah!
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.Monday, October 02, 2006 ' 6:39 PM Y
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WAH maths die liao...actuali not tt its tough la...but i not enuf revision...haiz now chem MUST pass...ah chem notes print hao liao...STILL CANT STICK IN MY CHEM REACTIONS!argh...so sux...physics shld be able to make it...now i onli scared chem...
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