slow bus rides home make my brain think...n thinking has never been good for me lol... seems like whatever i do, i face the same problem...i thought i improved, but im back to the square one again...n then theres the thing with my sis....n with my performance in front of ppl...im a perfectionist to a certain extent...n its seriously killing me...inferiority is eating me up...im really afraid theres going to b another breakdown...but i guess ive killed all possible lifelines for me...n the ones that used to b around...r all with their own life... i really envy u...all of u...what must i do to change...to take this part of me out...before it devours me whole...im really too tired to go on like this... ive always tried to b strong...for many of u...but at the end of the day...i guess...it doesnt matter at all...coz in the end...ill end up hurting all those who care, n get hurt by those who i care for...thats how things go doesnt it? in the end, no matter how i try, ill still b alone...coz i can never b satisfied, chasing stupid things while holding on to stupid thoughts... stop fooling urself.... no one is going to care . . .
;ppl who thinks they are ALWAYS right-_-
;unreasonable people(+ the above=idiots)
;frens who hurt themselves=(
;being accused(grrr...)
;not knowing about things